White reflection...

2008-12-29T01:15:00.002+08:00

That bitter sip
Coupled with the anaesthetic aftertaste
Just so perfect.
So how can I just say no?

prolly 10 days plus to NS so I'm gonna try to stay as happy as I could, savour every moment I can with my family and friends. So many people whom i really should meet up with to keep up with that friendship.

And guess that to achieve that, I gotta escape from reality, pretend nothing has happened so on lest to make it easier for me to go tekong. When in there, may things work it out itself though i highly doubt so. However, trng there is prolly gonna bring my mind off lots of things so perhaps it wun be so bad afterall.

2008-12-25T17:08:00.001+08:00

Caught in a dilemma which kinda hurts.
It all just feel so familiar.

Please show me the way...

2008-12-17T23:14:00.003+08:00

All i want for christmas is a miracle, nothing more.
If i can't get that, some mind anaesthetic drugs will do.

Its kind of interesting how we became the closest strangers, at least to me.

2008-10-08T19:04:00.002+08:00

Oh well. here's it! Big A here i come.

ST goal:
1) 5 A's in the big A though i really need to strive hard for my GP and Econs now.
2) Rid myself of distraction. FOCUS DAMNIT.

LT goal: (refering to after A)
1) Guitar Hero World Tour's drummer
2) Operation Abs revival
3) Operation Bust enhancement
4) Operation Steel lungs
5) Operation 15 PU no kick

FOCUS FOCUS. 1 Mth one week till this is all over!

2008-08-08T21:32:00.002+08:00

Screw the economic theory of self-correcting mechanism,
it doesnt apply in reality.

Even when it did self-correct itself, the exacerbating effect is done.
How is it for me to correct things when i know not the cause to it?
When every signal i saw all point to no one else but me?
When everyone else seem like a friend while me just a stranger?
When the real or perceived problem seem to lie on me?
And im left alone to rot.

Spare me from this fucking torment,
Ease the tension within me which is perhaps getting over stretched.

Aww damn, what a strong tendency to throw, to run...
Anything to get me off this thought for now.

2008-03-16T15:27:00.002+08:00

Damn, its been long since i last blogged.

Alright, last left off with my taipei trip.

Its a blast, though the temperature of around 5-10 degree is kinda cold and its like raining half the times, the experience was splendid. The rain was lighter than drizzle, like those vapour mist feeling. The cold temperature is sth u wun experienced here, so thats quite a refreshing experience for me too. Trying out all the exotic dishes is nice. Slping with my male cousins in the same hotel sounded kinda awkward initially since they are bro but we still got along. Hot spring was a funny exp. The shy guys ended up rolling our jeans up to wash our feet only. Come to think of it, it wud be nice if i cud just soak in into the huge public spring. Getting lost from ximending back to our hotel is thrilling, not exactly scary since it was a large group of pple. Love the mee suan, the bing tang hulu, the xxxxl chicken... Had a chance to try smelly toufu plus sat on world's 3rd biggest ferry wheel after sg flyer, london eye. Ate a towering ice-cream cone which cost like $1 only. Haha, that was kinda crazy although i look insane eating tt in the extreme cold. But how often do we get to do that? XD Plus it doesnt melt too unlike eating ice-cream here. Tie tang as recommended by zhiwei is nice, shud hv bought more. Tour guide is one funny chap. Bought lotsa snacks plus 1 jacket. Clothes there are perhaps too FASHIONABLE here. >.<

Hmm, hols is over in a blink of an eye. Been doing nth much but slacking. And the yoshin on fri kinda gave me food poisoning. First time i got tt, which totally sucks. Ytd had headache plus kept puking. Today felt completely weak. Gotta miss out my 400m race at simei and judo trng at forzara today. >.< I WANT THOSE.

Need to train harder for age group if i really wanna attain something. Cant slack this semester. Its my event. HAROO!

2008-02-04T22:46:00.000+08:00

Alright, sian of vector-ing... Its lame.

Anw, had PT with wesley before track last fri and i gotta say despite the rain, the cold, the dirty grandstand area, it was what i would define real trng. Everything of it just felt so right, so damn great though it was just between 2 person. Well, the spontaneous counting after each other is just motivating. Felt great to lead someone again for such physical stuff though i pretty much suck at it now. *miss those days*

In fact, i conclude its my best trng ever in that pretty much "sporty" school. The sad part is just that i couldnt kill the both of us since i still had trng after tt. =/

Judo, i sucked at it ytd, totally tio pwned. ARGH. Screwed feeling.

Anw, off to pack lauggage liao. Leaving for taiwan tmr nite! =D Tho i cant bring steph along, will be bringing back photo memoirs yea. Temp wud be kinda cold 11~15. And my jacket is so damn thin, its prolly aint gonna help much. Brrr...

But before that,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! GONG HEI FAT CHOY! =D

2008-01-27T12:31:00.000+08:00

Woah, been hella long since i last blogged. =X
But i guess thats J2 life for me? Everyone's blog is getting dead, nt to mention friendster too.

Anw, still coping with the run every weekday and judo on sunday ciriculum, although my hw pile is stocking up this weekend. And i havent got time to embark on project S. Shucks.

Hmm, nth really eventful the past few weeks.

Just had OG outing on fri, watched movies in school. Well, not everyone attended the outing but am still glad that at least they still kept in contact with each other after orientation unlike my OG last year which i also cant rmb exactly who was in it. And not bad, like 5 or 6 of them successfully became OGFs? =D Hell yea!

Kinda losing faith in myself in track and devoting more of my attention to judo. Bleah, wrong perspective but then i really feel that i got more hope in judo instead. But who cares abt the wrong perspective, i still train.

Forzara trng hella less intense than the old trng session. Perhaps i shud attend sat trng at CJ soon instead. Havent really been trng much, and also not much time to train oso. TIME TIME.

Anw, saw this MV in the 90s on MTV on fri nite and felt sth for it.
How much more meaningful things would appear to be if we could actually see it in reverse, something about rewinding time?
Seeing the after and before impact of our actions?

Enigma- Return to Innocence

2008-01-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

Wootz, orientation 1 was a blast. (anw, it was one week ago)
But sadly its my first and last time being a OGL.

And winning the 5th OG award was really a HAPPY moment though i always thought the prizes are sad. 5th outta 36 other OGs. It was really kinda unexpected, considering i guess that i cudnt really get everyone full involvement. But i guess its alright? As long as they enjoyed, i think i did my job.

Well, day1 started off pretty nerve wrecking. Seeing all the half-dead zombies in the hall, all not ready for the orientation mood. Not to mention, they were gonna be dragged into the audi for boredom 3hr marathon. Didnt exactly knw wad to do and how to get everyone involved. Told them abt the hell to expect and to mingle but... >.<

But when cheer began, it was BOOM. =D Haha, tried intimidating with my loudest cheer and i guess it worked?? Though not almost instantaneously but when i heard their loud cheer afterwards, it really spurred me on to cheer even louder and more. Thus, the screwed throat by end of day1 but it was worth it? If it wasnt for their "encouragement", perhaps i may give up through the cheer. So thanks RHEA.

Well, highlights: we broke one game record, that is the dizzy wadeva game, they got in 38 balls! BALLS BALLS BALLS. XD Kudos.
Witness a prelude of brokeback mountain two during the water tractor game.
Getting whole OG to gender switch for couple dance is so damn INTERESTING. XD
And the DAMN FIFTH POSITION. =)

But well, cudnt done it with my fellow OGLS, namely TALL 187CM DUDE YIXUAN (MALE) XD and FAKE 187CM SHORTY KAR MUN! =X *applause*

Well, my only regret, not being able to get real close with some of my OG mates. =/

Anw, back to sch is boring. Waking up at 5.30am daily. Slping thr lecture. Missing out lotsa stuff. >.< Chase baby chase.

And track new intake is kinda small. SCREW THE FUCKING OLD JERSEYS.

Back to revision b4 SL tmr and Judo on sun.

2008-01-01T18:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Its 1/1/2008!

Oh well, time to write the new year resolutions and hopefully get down to those. But before that, lemme recall wad i did prior to the new year.

Well, shopping for xmas is kinda fun other than the burn in the wallet part but oh well, spirit of giving! Anw, spent xmas visiting steph's hse initially and passing to her her giant giant gift. =) Oh manz, i kinda miss that cute bear's look. After that, chiong down to PS to meet up with the rest. Hanged out, then head to zheng fa huo hai xian to eat dinner. Well, its aaaa oily, HYGIENIC, fiery experience. Aha, but its great to enjoy these kinda cook-ur-own-food with frens. After tt, the rest came and MADE NOISE at my hse! Aha, stayover i meant. Well, been long since we last had a proper stayover. And we just watched disturbia, whacked monopoly for 3plus hours? and played HALO!!! Oh manz, CTF is so damn FUN! And its like how long since we guys had the exhilarating thrill of blasting ur own friend's head with a rocket launcher or whacking parts off with a plasma sword. DAMN, i swore we could last the whole nite simply with a black little box, controllers and HALO2. But well, prolly only gonna enjoy it like next year when we have sleepover somewhere. Anw, i guess i enjoyed it to the max by not slping till 6pm the next day? =D

30th, we had class BBQ. Supposed to be chalet initially but cudnt get rooms. Well, lets say i almost have no contact with the class except the ogls. So seeing them again was quite nice, although it was close to sch reopening. Hmm, celebrated jacq's birthday, surprised her with a birthday cake from the class. Well, was caught in a dilemma between staying over or not but guessed the sticky ashy me went home to slp instead.

But that was in preparation for NY countdown!

Well, wad turned out to be a nite at some ulu park playing with sparkles, steph and i ended at my bro's hse for his first party ever! So privilleged can. XD Had ber and sis pasta, with bukit timah hawker's bbq stingray and bbq wings. After tt, played monopoly again! Haha, building hotels, wad a great way to start the year. =D I guess it was like the first time i counted down with my siblings, if i didnt rmb wrongly. Haha, created lotsa noise with the party pack when it was 0000hr. Nice way to start the year eh.

2007's review.

I still hate AJC exterior.
I love Steph! =)
I made lotsa new peeps but i guess theres still the sch culture difference? Deeply, i still missed my sji peeps. And its just sad that i guess i drifted away from them due to the lack of effort to catch up. I miss the judokas, especially YJ and KX! Just feel that theres alot which we guys could catch up but just that we didnt have the chance nor time. Oh man, really, just a hella lotsa difference compared to 2006. =/
I felt weak mentally. I guess im starting to lack determination, with the thought of giving up constantly appearing in me, though i didnt. COME ON COME ON.
Im in track amazingly but i still miss judo - the cheers, the morale, the discipline but it didnt felt the same when i went back the other time.
I pangseh pple lotsa times.
I became closer to my siblings, maybe the maturity difference had closen up and hence, the age gap isnt really a problem? But felt real close to them this year and thats good.
Family had given me more freedom and i appreciate them for that, really. Hence, i will not let the trust down, BRING IT ON As!

New year resolution:

1) WHACK MY DAMN ASS OFF FOR As! Dun let it be the final exam.
2) Achieve sth for myself in kyugrade or age group.
3) Be nicer to steph. =)
4) Spend more time for frens.
5) Get closer to the class.
6) 12s for 100m.
7) 55s for 400m.
8) 30 points for napfa
9) MORE defined abs.
10) Ora Et Labora (for the best)
11) Play less. Games can wait. MOE cant.

COME ON COME ON, BRING IT ON. *ROAR*

2007-12-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

Dar Dar CHEER UP! Treat it as white noise, since no matter what, it will always be there. Tolerence is the key, daoness secondary. I learnt that.

Anw, to update this dusty blog. There was track chalet which was supposingly for the j2 which apparently, majority didnt turn up. It was held at the same old place i once had my 203 class chalet in sec3. Costa Sand Pasir Ris. Love that place. Anw, BBQ was pekcek, coz the pathetic charcoal from that dunno wad giant ogligopolistic supermkt sucks. Took like 4 fire starters to actually turn one red hot, sufficient for bbqing?? 1st time seeing bbq with 2 box of fire starters. However, starting the fire with the guys was really fun. Bonded us together, sth which a team needs. 2nd day, WWW. Slack slack slack, thats the life. By 2nd nite, most had left leaving like around 8 half dead souls. At the end of a movie, 6 departed for dreamland, leaving me and shaoming awake. So we played with fire starters, sparkles and its box and psp till 2 plus before we depart to find the rest. And slping on chair is HORRENDOUS. FUCKING HORRIBLE. Due to lack of space, me and SM gotta slp on chair. Halfway thr nite, he disappeared and squeezed onto a bed while i lie on 2 chairs and slp. (imagine that) Oh well, chalet is always fun! Just that, there cud be more which we could do.

Went to support ALICIA QUEK at some combined jc band fest thingy the previous sun at esplandade. Well, i seriously dunno how to appreciate classical music with eyes awake manz. Heh. I mean there wasnt many moving things on the stage. Thus i dozed off for one song. =X Supper with the skyline is so so cool. And amazingly, this combined band concert fall on my 8th mth anniversary at the same exact location. =D

Went back judo trng today after mths and well, heard much about the fall of morale there. Warmup sounded softer than usual, no cheers. THATS ALL. Yea, that meant alot, its the loudness that starts the fervour in us judokas, which bonds the club as one. Shucks, quite a heartache. Me and calv cheered and what we heard was "whoa, i never hear that for a while" Bleah. Anw, nice doing uchikumei till all part of the body goes weak again. =D And the nip abrasion is back! Hell yea!! Burn baby burn (during shower)! XD Throwing calv nearly broke my spine or wadeva. Felt the stiffness there. Aha. Chatting with coach and mdm tan. Prolly joining forzara next yr till competition.

DAMN I MISS JUDO. and my blue belt which i left outside the dojo today. T.T

Hols almost gone and i think this is my most productive hols ever. =)

2007-12-06T22:55:00.001+08:00

Opps, late entry again. Wanted to blog about last friday gathering with the judokas again but didnt have time to.

Anw, that outing was great. Ate at muthu's curry at LITTLE INDIA. Aha, what a place to meet. Initial plan was to eat at seoul garden but jothi is vegetarian and we cant expect him to pay $15 for vege only, we headed to his area. Met at dohby gaut first where it looks like some kinda illegal gathering. Talked and laughed out loud in the station. Seeing everyone after so long is just =D, bring back the memories we guys shared. And luckily, none of us really changed alot, other than yj with his flat hair and sk with his new non-carbo diet. And almost half the judokas have gfs, what does that mean? XD After lunch, headed back to our usual routine of lan and pool followed by dinner at pastamania. Well, pool and lan aint exactly my stuff but still, old memories. WE GUYS SHUD HAVE MORE OF SUCH OUTINGS! minus lan. That would be superb.

Theres this thought coming to me, perhaps i shud take out my gi and prepare for one last competition: Kyu/age grp before theres no other.

Is the same old determination still there, is the flame still burning? Or am i just afraid, too mentally weak for all this?

CAL, I WANT PT AT AJC TWICE A WEEK FROM NOW ONWARDS. But i prolly forgotten but we used to do for pt.

Go Roy, dun stay at the rear!

2007-12-02T11:46:00.000+08:00

Bangkok trip was so demanding on the legs... Because there was so much shopping to do!!!

Well, last sunday at around this time, at around 10.50 there, we were at chuptuchup weekend market - the market of all markets. Yea, its like a jumbo local night market except that it spans over a huge area, sells almost EVERYTHING and it lasts from 10am till 6pm. When i said almost EVERYTHING, i mean it because you can find home decors, clothes, food, plants and even animals such as small croc/aligators. But then the animals in the cages look real kelian coz the cage is seriously quite pathetic. There was so much to shop there till my sis bought this huge auntie bag, those u see in HK street carried by those streets sellers. But its damn pekcek carrying it around because the routes are so small and the bag is so BIG. >.<

Alright, wasnt really much sightseeing to be done there. Except last day when we decide to head down to wat po to visit the temple. However, this guy claims that it was budha day and that temple will only open at 12pm, advising us to take a tu-tu around to visit other temple first. So we heed his advice, taking 2 tu-tu for like only less than 2 sing dollars. Headed to some temple, to some export centre followed by the 2nd last stop at this high up temple. So took us quite a while to climb up and down. When we reach down, the tu-tus had disappeared! And we somehow panicked because we havent paid them yet. In the rush for time and that some guy said the tu-tus had left, we hailed another cab and left for our hotel. =D Free experience and tu-tu. How cool is that? But i guess it was prolly a scam? And that their main objective is to bring us to the export centre (they keep persuading us to go there in exchange for gas coupons). Maybe the centre gives them commision that is much higher than our fare?

Anw, stuff there are damn damn cheap. Love the adidas 50% discount off if you buy sth cheaper followed by sth expensive. Bought lotsa stuff from there. =D No more shopping till then. But i still need a pair of sneakers to substitute my barely surviving adidas one.

Last day, reached airport at 3 plus when flight is at 7.45. Was there earlier for VAT refund. After that, due to some technical error at sg side, flight was delayed 5 LONG HOURS. Wootzzz... Horrible experience cause my mum was pretty emo over that. Interestingly, theres more jap restaurants in the airport than thai one (which was only one). And we spent most on jap dinner rather than thai one. =/

Was so damn slpy by the time i boarded the plane which is at sg time 145 till i slept my ass off throughout the flight, even through the 15min supposingly bad air turbulence. DAMN, i wanted to experience that.

Japan would be a nice destination for the next trip. [CNY!!!]

2007-11-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

Sawadika (?), Im gg thailand tmr! And wads best than leaving the 300th post to blog about pre-thailand. =D

Well, to get sth off my head. There's this back to judo trng thought in my head. Especially after the current vice-capt of cjc yx told me abt trng camp and asking me back for trng. And it just got back to me about the permanent tendon injury, permanent i believe. I still cant exert much strength with it, doing the simple exercise which the doct made me do to discover the extent of damage of that disastrous fall. Went gym on wed and the tricep trng machine got my elbow hurting quite badly after that. Oh well, maybe just pt and slack slack here, drink tea, crap bah. Furthermore, i also began relating my situation with my dear old ex partner kx. >.< Happy 17th Birthday Dude, love the hair.

Wonder how life wud be like if i went cj initially.

Another thing, my current cca track. Well, simply put, things are just way too different between the 2 sports. The coaches taught me different things. Judo: Whack till you die; Track: Dun whack till you die. So DIFFERENT. Okay, well, lack of discipline and all that too i believe. And lacking in spirit! I MISS JUDO TRNG. The part when shagged but still cheer our countless repetitive cheer. "NO PAIN NO GAIN" Love the team spirit back then, how we maintain as a team despite the huge group. [although not all attended trng] Cant wait for 30th Nov when im back!

Anw, early end of year reflection: my greatest regret this yr: Going AJ. NOT PERSUADING MY FAMILY TO LET ME GO CJ but simply obliged to them and believe that two years is SHORT.

But well, there're pros too. The peeps i met there and of coz, my Dar. =)

IM GONNA MISS YOU!!!

2007-11-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

1 more posts to 300 posts!
Shucks, been hella long since i last blogged.

Its mainly due to the mindset that all the things i blogged about are repetitive, no valuable insights to be gained from it? But at least the 1st part of the storm is over. JC1 is officially over.

First, MY PW GROUP AJ111. [nice no. eh]
Well, been fun working with the group. At least our group is both fun and serious. Haha, maybe the fun part abit only coz i was making sure things are serious during the minimal time we had. But yea, PW taught me lotsa things and throughout the 7mths, i think all of us know how to cooperate with each other, how to accept all the differences among us. While the journey till the end was DAMN TOUGH, nearly strangling me at times, the support we showed each other at the end was really commemorable. THANKS GUYS.

Ever seen a chain of 22 movies tickets which cost 160+? ITS HELLA LONG. Class outing after Op exam to grand cathay. Watched the seeker which is SO NOT LAME. HA HA HA.
I finally realise how much cinema earn per full seating theatre.

AND ITS TIME FOR ME TO GET BACK MY SOCIAL LIFE. Which i suffered tremendously. =/ Saw a book "cut to the chase" which teaches us about time management today, something which i believe is applicable to me. Prolly gonna borrow the book and give myself an enrichment programme this hols. Just cant emphasis how bad is it to pangseh frens. Oh well.

Relationship been rocky, with all the emo-ism going on. But things are still going well. =) Every bits of meaningful lessons from each argument and conflict makes the ending much more blissful, fixes the jigsaw puzzle pieces together to form its final masterpiece.

Lots of thoughts in my head, but i dunno wads exactly there. I guess this hols shud serve as a time for me to reflect on the many events that took place this year.
REFLECTION TIME.

Well, i guess this blog entry may sound pointless/boring but i guess theres meaning in it to me? Aiya who cares, THIS BLOG IS MINE ANW.

2007-10-05T21:06:00.000+08:00

MOMMY, ITS OVER!!!!

Yea yea, that overrated war is finally down, yea, peace and joy for all. Now its for the much more fun PW! WOOTZ~!

Anw, just an update of wad happened during the war.

Artillery strike on target Econs was so accurate that it prolly blew it outta the demand supply curve.

Fighting against Mathematics with just a pen, pencil, ruler and a GC is hopelessly pathetic. U prolly need sth more like... A PAPER SHREDDER!!! XD **** MATHS.

Wenta eat New York New York at amk hub after last paper. Was thinking of going TOWN!!! But then, the rest say like too far, so chose somewhere nearer instead. I STILL WANNA GO TOWN although i gg near there this sun, ACSB hostel for pw coz AJC no HOSTEL. AHA, SO COOL CAN. So poor AJ scholars gotta spend extra money for transportation, not to mention that a sec sch has a hostel but a jc dun have. WOW, SO COOL LAR.

*sense the sarcasm?*

Wootz, judokas, sec2 mates shud meet soon after the final hurdle, dun fall now.

Oh yea, and today sth freaking malu happened, playing psp when train suddenly accelerate like 7541903 faster and i got flung off all the way while desperately trying to grip the overhead handle but grap nth but just brush past that thing which holds the handle to the bar. Not to mention, hopping back again after i got my footing. =.=

Wootz, MORE GAMES.

2007-09-16T20:08:00.001+08:00

Alright, from the abnormal blogging lag here, its apparent that IM BUSY.
And I got alternative mode to destress.
And perhaps im not so stress
And maybe im sianed from complaining here about sth so typical in most students' blog.
And im typing this now with immense 8sec lag from my com, I WANT A NEW 2GB RAM COM!

K time to motivate myself to study coz i cant seem to focus on it without doing sth else.
The benefits of studying now:
1) The end gets better
2) Lesser stress next week
3) Closer to the end of PW and Chinese AKA beginning of endless join till i start uni/working

What i wanna do after promos:
1) Bring my PEBB to DFS Galleria for cheesecake
2) Meet with the cliques - Sec 2/ Judokas
3) Have a jnr outing which wesley will organise
4) Massive Seoul Garden for Maximise fun
5) Xboxing screaming endless chains of words while killing zombies in doom
6) PSPing, complete monster hunter 2, ridge racer, HP, etc etc
7) Get into town clothes and obviously go town since im like always gg town in AJ uni nowadays wk is pretty uncool depending on wad perspective u look at it
8) Revamp my room/Tidy up my room - its dusty
9) Redesign blogskin
10) Start designing the photoframes wk i wanted to since last dec hols
11) Begin my exercising plan to get hot bod - ONE FREAKING DISADVANTAGE OF EXAMS, SCREW UR BODY CONDITION UPSIDE DOWN
12) Stocking up on TYS and start preparation for A levels in 2008.

Aha, i aint serious bout the last one.
Well all these only gonna start in mid Nov.. =/

DINNER TIME.
THEN mug. =.=

2007-08-28T20:19:00.000+08:00

What happened to trust?

That bites. Once, twice, thrice.

2007-08-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

Woah, been a dead long time since i last updated, eventhough i had the urge to last week.
PW totally eats my weekends.

So lemme try and recall wad i did recently.

Well, last last tues, i went for this science centre seminar thingy on science groundbreaker at where else but science centre. Other schools were there as well except for some such as AC, SA and HC. But nonetheless, it was so damn cool to see many josephians around. Saw some guy from 211 last time, ali?, michael ee, some unknown dude, guan wen, choo sian? and LEE BOON PING. Yea, and i spoke to a few of them but surprisingly, i spoke the least to the one who been through hell and back for 79894312 times with me. Wah lao eh...
Free admission into SSC kinda cool.

National day celebration in AJ is kinda sad compared to what we had in SJI. Got this AJ race which is supposingly like amazing race huge crowd edition. Wanted us to move around vicinity near the school during peak hour is like bleah, uh-uh. Headed from yck to yishun to khatib and back to school for a 15min concert although it lasted for like 45mins coz it takes time to get us to the hall. Prizes for the race quite sad oso, just some packet of chips and snacks. Hmm, more can be done? House t-shirt is ugly - BIG TIME. Gonna design one after promos. =D

After the celebration, went hm to prepare for my bro BIG day. He got his registration of marriage on 8/8/07. =) Finally married. XD One room for myself soon. Haha, but yea, i was really happy for him. The whole ceremony was so so nice and sweet manz. *meltzzz* Was supposingly one of the photographers on that day. Sadly, my dad cudnt afford to take leave and gotta miss out on the ceremony. But oh well, at least theres still the wedding next year. Although till now i still cant figure out what is wedding and registry of marriage. For dinner, we had meet the parents session. Not the typical teacher parent one lar, but the parent parent de. And it was at sheranton hotel, some posh posh place. Love the food at the restaurant. First time feeling the high std of service thingy. Splendid feeling but the price kinda burn the wallet. Its for a joyous occasion and everyone was happy after the meal so worth it?

Thursday was National day. (i prepare to call it NDP though) Celebrated it in some other way this year. Headed to my bro's office which has quite a nice view of the river. The platform was however blocked by the giant screen at the corners. Steph suggested watching fireworks so i tot of going my bro there. Well, quite cool to see things so upclose without having to endure much of the crowd, hunger, thirst and heat. =) Jealous? Firework is so so pretty although i heard the competition today and on fri was much nicer and longer.

Spent weekend sadly rather unproductively doing WR last minute work and chionging tutorial.

This week had been kinda an emo week. So much things going through my head - schoolworkwise, ccawise, relationwise till i just have this idea to like completely shut myself down as i thought i did ytd during lecture and ended up cracking lame shit outta my mind the moment i tot of it. Spammed weizhe and colin with my lame CREATIVE joke during chem lect.

"what do u call an infinite chain of carbon in an organic compound? INS-ane. XD AHAHAHA.

Yea, and went on telling the whole class abt it. Oh yea, secret was kinda lame although well, reminded me of something. Blah blah blah.

Proud owner of $40 plus of mugger's equipment ranging from sample essays to guides,
my PSP [hell yea, keep me sane] and bf of coffee. =P OPPPS.

2007-07-28T19:46:00.000+08:00

Alright, seems like this place kinda collecting spiderweb liao but just to keep my life updated, I SHUD BLOG although i kinda forgotten some things which might be meaningful to me but cant blog it down.

Recently, got this author who wrote one of our passages in our chinese textbook came and gave us a speech and i guess most pple found it kinda boring and were dozing off. But i found something that he brought up very meaningful: there is always something you find beautiful in someone you'd defined as beautiful but if you put everything u find beautiful from different people together, you'll probably get a freak. I guess it meant that everyone is beautiful in their own way, or almost everyone, and don't find flaw about someone's imperfection and constantly seek for perfection because there's no such thing as perfect beauty.

Had PTM ytd first time in JC life and my bro and i agreed that SJI PTM STILL RAWKS BIG TIME. Bloody hell lar, cramp all the parents, teachers, food, tables, chairs, students into the damn HALL. Was like so freaking noisy and all that lor. =.=" Anw, not bad, no bad comments for the time being. Waha, teachers reassured my bro that I CAN COPE! I hope its true. Ball B and JOLIN were like discussing with the other SC whether my bro is my father or who. Tsk tsk, slacking and gossiping sia. MS ANG WAS SO CHEEKY!!!

Interhouse dragon boating today at the kallang. Unlike SJI again, WE GOTTA PAY FOR IT. But i guess the fun and better stuff were worth the money. SAVA some Singapore Dragon Boat club gave the course and for the first time outta two, our boat got a dragon head and tail which according to them cost $500 each. Woah. Boat weights 270-290kg despite it being lighter. Woah. First time experiencing the drum beat. Cool. But then, after all the preparation for our final 3 races, it started raining. So race cut down to 1. And during that 1 race, some house went haywired, then the one beside went haywired and kaboomed, side banged into ours. Then tot there wud be some restart or wad but nah, and the boat which banged us went on for the fun of it, which resulted in them getting 3rd. =.= But nonetheless, still great fun. MORE COORDINATION THAN LAST YR. Jag SHA!

And its been damn long since i last got completely drenched in the rain, although today was a terrible cold one and wasnt really feeling so good. Feel like im gonna lose my voice soon.

BLOOD DONATION DRIVE! So sad! Wanted to donate so managed to persuade my mum to allow me to. Went in, vein visible so continued filling up questionaires. Then went to doct and then bleah. Due to my rare unusual chest pain which occurs at rest, i cant donate. So i guess that means i prolly wun be able to until NS since im prolly not gonna go for a full body checkup till before NS.

Met Ms Toh today, ex track TIC, her stomach getting much bigger. Inviting trackers for Xmas party at her hse. Track season ended. My 400m race was okay lar, did below 60s but barely below only. Just contented not last. Set realistic goals manz, aim to run first, not fly.

Off to another week of freeflow of tutorials with my new NIKE bag! =D Ooolala...

2007-07-09T19:54:00.000+08:00

Okay, lets update the boring stuff first yea. 1st PROPER examination in JC and i can safely say that my result now allows me to promote! XD But then, some of the result are not really satisfying. For eg, Chinese. Wrote my essay totally off and getting 12/60 when i was expecting like at least 40 for that EMO story. Oh well, morale of story. Cute cartoon kills. >.< Got almost everything except maths but its a pretty guaranteed U. So who cares.

Now for the much more meaningful things in life. My 1st track national event. The 4X100m relay. Well, ended up getting last but then we sorta achieved our PB and the passing was smooth throughout. Just kinda disappointed that we couldn't reach the 47+ timing range. Good job Yi Yang, Wei Xian, Kang Seng, Joshua and Joel! And tmr is my 2nd and last event for this meet, 400m. I can't really aim to achieve much now, i presume? I should roughly know my limit and can only strive to cut down by 2sec using KS method of running, which I unfortunately didnt have the chance to try out yet.

Went back to SJI for Annual Parade which (sorry KC) i found boring. Cant expect much considering that i wasnt from UG in SJI so yea. But it was great seeing some people again. Like MR LIM, MR LAM, JNR WESLEY, SNR SHERMAN! Been so long since i last saw them! And wes, u changed alot eh. From the 3/4 pants dude to jeans plus crumpler, tsk tsk, someone growing up liao. XD

And not that i wanna complain, but downtown east seriously aint that well developed despite calling itself the most hip place around. Went there last last week for chalet and the water point at the BBQ pit were far away and very limited? And just went with some of the trackers to escape last sun and its totally horrible? First time i saw such an empty theme park, with 3 of its more thrilling rides "under maintainance" at the same time. [there werent anyone working with those rides throughout the day]. Food was also kinda sad. With only two fastfood stalls there, you would expect the best out of them but WTH, FIRST TIME I SAW FASTFOOD WITH DEPLEPTED FOOD SUPPLY AND DRINK? It was so bad that all the beef burger in BK were wiped out. Not that i love complaining, BUT I FEEL SAD FOR US... The rides so-so lar. Sat invertor like dunno how many times lor. SOMEONE PLEASE INVERT ME BACK.

=) Awwweee...

2007-07-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

Anyway, to update this blog of mine, i had a class chalet after MYE.

And 1st day wasnt really considered a class since there were only 8 people outta 25. Did nth but just play cards and stone. 2nd day was much better. Started with a trip to Wild Wild Wet, that paradise of slackism. Somemore, got the tickets for free, heh... Just slacked around the whole day till 3. Sat the Pipe thingy or wadeva u call it twice and for both time, i had to face downwards. The SCARY thrill of falling at free fall >.< After that, slack for a while more before BBQ. By then, lotsa people were here. Think more than 3/4 of class present. Im the satay/otah/crabstick/fishball/chao ta chicken wing man with roasted fingers after that. Oh man, poor fingers. I shud prolly wear a glove next time. Played cards till 4 am before finding the gals plus two guys at macdonald and head off to the beach to watch sunrise. But before that, we spent some time at the playground first. Uh-huh, can tell u i was like a zombie after the sun rose. We didnt exactly see the sun, but the sky brighten up.

Nationals start tmr and may AJ track team do well this year. All the way guys!

Bleah, im typing this post like a half dead zombie, shud edit it when im more alive.

2007-07-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

Im tired of hurting people. There is a limit to the capacity of evil deeds that i could do that my physical self is able to withstand. I just cannot stand the thought of doing harm to others - imagining the pain I am, as a human, able to inflict on other human beings. And sometimes such could not simply be erased off, like a piece of note written in a letter, and sometimes, or should I say often, I never did anything except for a simple sorry but many times, such could not be make up with just a simple sorry.

I never believed in God but a prayer come to mind in times of such
Dear God, bless whom I hurt, erase whatever evil I did although it may seem like an impossible task, protect them from further harm. Burn a mark in me to remind me of what Im capable of, never make me forget, guide me along and bring me back from darkness to light.

May our seed grow and blossom, till the end.
Im really sorry. Really.

~~This entry is slashed, meant to be forgotten, deleted. But i feel that i ought to type this, to remind me. Dun remind, dun mention cause it is meant to be forgotten.~~

Im alright. I just feel bad, as if i stabbed my most precious one.

2007-06-22T10:15:00.000+08:00

I just feel so like slacking...

This holiday can be somehow considered as my most unproductive ever. In terms of studying, Im sure i did assigned lotsa time to it but in terms of social relations, uh-uh. Somehow got this fear that i may be drifting apart from pple, from my friends. I just hardly got time for them. Well, there may be people who can understand me and i really appreciate, but those who cant, im really busy or at least i feel that right now, there are other things which involve much more of my attention. Not that friends aren't important, its because they are and thats why i dun wanna lose them. SORRY! Been dead long since i last appeared on msn, in fact, the whole of the 2nd term, im always hardly online. But i just dun feel that freeness anymore, of having so much time that i can just rot whole day in front of the com and catchup with the judokas, ex-classmates etc. Argh. And the fact that i wun probably be able to do so until the dec hols just bite into me. Theres just more to life than books, i agree with KC but now, we're prolly stuck with the latter.

Shudnt rant on abt how boring studies can be.

I miss my advent children disc, JOEY RETURN ME! >.<
I still havent finish my photo frame design although wanting to at the start of the year.

At the detour, a choice had to be made
People may choose the alternate, but i chose the other
Because i know people, no matter what choice
We will still meet at the next.

Inner me, guide me.

2007-06-15T21:34:00.000+08:00

*shake head vigourously*

Oh man, i dun feel that good now. Feeling light headed with wobbly legs. >.< Rest.

Today had some VJ invitational track meet at VJ which is kinda far away oso. So once again travelled hella far. It just so happens that my every race have to rain. And im not satisfied with my timing! Just felt that i could hv done better coz my thighs was seriously strengthless during the run.

Gonna let my legs relax and recover tmr so that i can give all out this sun. I WUN DISAPPOINT.

Confidence, faith. All the way...

2007-06-14T14:58:00.000+08:00

>.< Damn tired now.

Just got home after light trng at TAMPINES. FYI, I live in CCK. So i gotta get my ass up this morning and travel one hour plus there. Well, pretty much left with no choice thats why i gotta go and the competition is this sun. Uh-huh. Just do my best and dun disappoint.

Had track BBQ last night. Pretty fun although theres quite alot of unexpected events. Bloody kiamsap *** dun wanna insert the bloody tap key for residents. So after touching the charcoal, we're pretty much desperate for water. And the only source was the tap without the key. So we unscrewed it abit, and was glad that water came out but after that BOOM. Whole tap came off and water just kept gushing out for an hour or so b4 they finally cut off the supply. Used some kinda cheapo charcoal from sheng shiong that produces smoke that could pretty much serve as distress signal. But the chicken wings, satay and crabsticks were good. XD But like having some kinda dry throat now.

SORRY JUDOKAS! I cudnt go again coz it just clashes ytd. Aww...

I hate unreasonable people, especially pple like k square who for no obvious reason just love to spam his "might" over "minorities".

I love suntanning, no matter how bad is the aftermath. Just love the feeling of being on the sand and doing completely nothing but just slack, thinking about nothing, having no worry, away from the familiar urban life, hearing the waves clashing onto the shore.

Off to nap.

2007-06-10T11:43:00.000+08:00

=_=""" This sucks.

Judo outing's been postponed/cancelled coz last minute everyone just seem to be uncontactable and busy. Wth lar, tot i told everyone its this sun? And it was so last minute that most of us were gonna change le and calvin was already on his way. =.= CRAP MAN. Felt so bad that i have to tell cal that its cancelled.

And trng ytd nearly got me killed by my mum, that is if she knew i tore some tendons again. It hurts now just trying to straighten my hand. Luckily it isnt some damn serious injury else i will be killed by track coach as well. >.< And my judo is like BLEAH. Yea, 3 mths of no trng. Geez, sucky feeling.

Tmr start of track day, may things go smoothly.

2007-06-09T10:33:00.000+08:00

2nd week of the hols coming to an end, u can also effectively say that hols is coming to an end cause from next week onwards, most of us will prolly be mugging our ass off. >.< Especially ME, since i havent touched a stuff yet except for finishing my hw. Need to focus but well, studying during hols is a big enuf distraction for me. Oh well...

Anw, 1st official track outing on thurs to SENTOSA. Wootz, the ultimate paradise to slack, chill, relax. But then turnup was pretty sad lar. 8/50+ pple came. Suntanned my ugly tan lines off, soaked in the sea, dig giant deep hole that was like till my thighs and threw virnice in it then into the sea. XD Saw jellyfish for the first time oso and it was pretty scary knowing that its sting sucks. It looks pretty cute though, much like a rotting seaweed before getting a close look at it. Small round jellyish stuff with a brown ring. After that met at Vivo with the j2 plus shaoming. Ate superdog which was NICE. The juicy steaming hotdog. Yummm... Plus that heavenly slip of iced chocolate koped from andrew. XD I WANT MORE! They shud consider opening more franchise. Candy empire is so so ex. Everything there is like twice the usual price? Uh uh, not worth it, the aunties wud say.

Had pretty bad sunburn, although i aint peeling yet. Just got red face only, yea yea red face. Ur friendly neighbourhood tribal dude/pikachu. >.< And to poor nic who cut himself in the sea, TAKE CARE MANZ! We need u for hurdles next year! And dun fear the beach, its a cool place. [although i think he wun like ever read this]

Going to catch up with the judo peeps later. Heh, although during quite an inappropriate period, their last day of trng camp. They'd prolly be more interested in slp than in ME. Some of the other sec4 going back as well. Coolio. Then tmr got sec4 judokas OUTING. AT LONG LAST, I GOT MY ASS DOWN TO SET A DATE TO MEET. And we'd prolly spend out whole day at breeks if they allow coz knowing them, we can prolly talk crap and stone the whole day. Oh man, IM MISSING THEM LIAO.

Packing my files now, then start start start my engine tonight.
Blood from the palm flows to the heart, thats why couples hold hands. =)

2007-06-02T11:11:00.000+08:00

Went to CJ ytd after track for the Midsummer Night's Dream, a play which siti, sondra and martina were involved in. And it was pretty cool that the CJ pple actually jio me along although it had been quite a while since i last contacted any of them. Thanks man. Pretty nice to see all the familiar faces again, including some of the graduated judokas like hejia and yimin. And Chao Ah Beng Zhenyi changed so so much! He looks more pia kia than wang now. XD And his hair is like so so much longer than mine. >.< Dramatic shift sia, someone. My partner, YJ was there as well. Still look the same eh?

WE SHUD CATCH UP SOMEDAY, thats if i can find time. Running for nationals as well, although prolly cant qualify at this stage but will still try my best. JUDOKAS, TRAIN HARD AND GET INTO FINALS! Wanted to go back today but sorta got some injuries ytd from track. Painful heels plus shins and aching badly groin or dunno wad muscle that is. >.<

Aww, still aint in the holiday mood. Still keep having the thought of hw and studies although i guess thats how most jc students are feeling now? Feeling some kinda fatigue falling upon me ytd. But long long slp till 10 plus cures it all.

I wanna swim tmr and eat own made jellies next week.
I want sentosa also. Track sentosa outing on 7th june!

2007-05-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

Today was a hot hot HOT day.

Went to ECP with steph to celebrate her birthday. How cool is that, to have ur birthday falling on the first day of holidays. XD Unlike mine which is often during exam period. Going to the beach is just the life, love it. Although i guess it wud be much better to go sentosa instead which got cleaner sand and water. Drinking slurpee under the midday sun on the breakwater is simply one of the greatest enjoyments one can get. Guys, do try it out someday.

At that moment, my heart bleed.
How I wish I could be the one instead, for i had endured so many times before
And pain is almost like some kind of anaesthetic to me now.
But i gotta admit,
U're strong.

And Im just glad that my effort paid off,
in bringing out that smile of yours,
in making it up for our 1st anni,
in making this day a special one for you =)
Its worth the time.

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY DAR!

Hols, gonna start work on mon. But for the time, SLACK. XD

2007-05-20T09:30:00.000+08:00

Woohoo, another week of school to hols.

And theres just so so much that i wanna do during this hols... But then, time doesnt permit. MYE is just straight after hols, although it is a pretty literal meaning in this case, MYE shud fall in JUNE yea? Instead of the typical May. =.= Someone shud just write in a complain essay or wad with the question "Does holidays still apply in today's world?". Can prolly start by giving an elaborate definition of hols. GO MUGGERS.

Hmm, could say that i was emo on tues. It just suddenly come to me that im like screwing up so so much in my academics, failing 3 tests outta 4 and screwing up my 1st SPA and I so want to do something abt it but again, it is just hard to balance between wad i want and ought to do. The thought of staring at some dumb maths question for half an hour certainly sound less appealing than spending that to catch up or swim or wadsoever. Furthermore, in addition to the rumours/facts that AJ is a mugger sch. >.< But nvm, 1st CT only. THE GOOD PROGRESS AWARD WILL BE MINE. ROY FOCUS DAMNIT.

Feeling the sense of mental and physical fatigue due to not enough sleep plus endless nights of trng then chionging hw. So bad till i nearly see stars on wed, puked out my MOS lunch and almost fainted. Plus still having headache the past few days. Oh well... But i somehow missed that sadistic feeling of trng till ur body cant take it anymore. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Oh yea, how true is that.

W.P, thanks for sacrificing time and ur poor little fingers for 16/5. Really appreciate the gift. Thanks Dar! =)

Another week to go, I CAN DO THIS.

Reality, a place where everything can't happen concurrently, give and take i would say.

2007-05-13T17:48:00.000+08:00

Eyes on me - Fayne Wong

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

No time to post much. Got lotsa things that i still need to do by TODAY.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! Cuppacino any mum?

And congrats to MUGI, YANG, VIRNICE, CLARISSA for making it into the Dua Pai of Track and Field! XD

Off to settle unfinished business.

2007-05-05T23:52:00.000+08:00

Well, been quite some time since i last got back here.

This week passed pretty fast. Mainly due to sports day and labour day falling on mon and tues respectively, my 2 ultra long and tedious days. Sports day was pretty cool, initially thought that it was quite a kiam idea to hold in the school itself but then, the feeling actually felt quite good. It just feels different compared to the one I had in SJI, at TP stadium. Prolly cause u dun feel that involved in a huge place? Anw, Congrats to Jenson for attaining title of sports boy/bra XD and eugene for breaking some sick record and making it sicker and to the JAGUAR 4X400m team! We totally shook AJ in that last race.

I miss the sec 4 2006 B div team. So close. =/

Labour day totally sucks. Forced to like mug for tests, wth. Am so looking forward to those precious once in a while one day holiday. But at least i got to wake up late. Upcoming hols prolly gonna suck as well, still gotta go back school for lectures? Thats to the extreme manz, DUN THEY SEE THAT WE DESPERATELY NEED BREAKS? Or are they just blind. I presume the latter is true. And Mid year after june hols. SO COOL LAR. =_="

And saw wang at PS today. Felt like eons since i last met the 434 clique. LETS CATCH UP SOMEDAY.

Current desires:
Sentosa,
Shopping,
Swimming,
Tennis,
Seoul Garden,
Anything as long as its with you

I would treasure every moment, every breathe of mine spent with you, steph.
You remove the words "lonliness" and "sadness" in my dictionary and added in "joy", "bliss" and "love".
Thanks for being so understanding. =)

2007-04-29T17:32:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!! FUCKING GPP FUCKING PISSES ME OFF!

Urge to just type it out. THE LAYOUT FREAKING SUCKS, DAMNIT. I think i spent like more time on adjusting the stupid layout rather than on doing my gpp instead. In fact, im done with GPP BUT THE FUCKING LAYOUT JUST KEEP HAVING THIS DARN RETARDED PROB OF NOT SHIFTING FOR WADSOEVER REASON. And when im done, and about to start printing it, there wasnt enough paper. Canceled printing and the layout went haywired again. =.= SERIOUSLY LAR, WTH.

Stress management. Breathe.

Anw, Life's still hectic. Somemore with the additional load from tests and PW. There's seriously not enough time to do what I want to do. =/ And I never really expected JC life to be this busy. Always had the image that it was fun. Full of outings and activities. But i guess theres an ugly side to it? Looking forward to the June Holidays.

That feeling sends my mind away to a place whereby only bliss and you exist.
If only time don't exist.

2007-04-22T14:44:00.000+08:00

Bliss.

Family day was quite a blast, i gotta admit. It was fun, a great way to bond yea? 23/07 AKA Candy Mania stall sold MAI YA TANG or malt candy ONLY despite being CANDY MANIA. XD On fri went with part of the class to AMK hub giant NTUC to deplete their supply of malt candy and chopsticks. Bought like 8 cans of that and 300 pairs of chopsticks? And miraculously, we actually sold finish all the 8 cans, making quite alot of profit as well. Coolio. Also went around visiting trackers stall, basically just mingling about. I MISSED KANG SENG'S SINGING. Coz of the amazing hunt thingy. Oh well. But then concept of family day quite weird yea? Hardly see families around, only AJCians. Went off early after selling finish everything at 11.30am.

I could hold on like this for eternity,
Just to hear your every breathe close to mine,
Just to feel your heart beating with me,
Just to embrace your warmth so significant in the cold,
Just to let you know somewhere in this world someone cares,
Just to be with you, by your side always.

Sincerely, from somewhere deep beneath my skin and flesh, in that place which keeps me going.

2007-04-18T23:49:00.000+08:00

W.P and B.P =)

Well, the past week had been pretty eventful. Had breakdance workshop, lame resilence workshop which taught me no nuts, sport heats, choir concert, Choir concert was cool because it was my first time in the esplanade concert hall and it was so so cool lar. Love the design of the whole place, looks so hmm, literature-ly? Especially the hanging ceiling lights thingy. Whoar. And I got some supposingly VIP balcony seats that was just above the concert hall. Cool!

And today had X-country competition. Whole track team went over to support the peeps. Well, the guys race turned out to be pretty emotional. Apparently Eugene and Mugi pushed themselves too hard and yar. Nvm lar, we still have a year to prepare. We'll show them whos boss next year manz. AJC, victory just comes with training. Pushing ourselves to the limit is the only way to improve, i believe. You guys sure inspired all of us to train harder manz. All the way.

Have you ever been so overwhelmed with guilt and see yourself as the one who had crushed a flower a young girl was looking at, for causing someone else to cry, for doing nothing when something is supposed to be done? Have you ever had the thought that when u wrenched open ur ribs to discover a crimson red heart, continuous pumping blood yet being cold, cold blooded people would say.

Im overwhelmed with guilt yet I see no reason for me to do so. I'd pretend I nv read anything.

Im scared...

2007-04-07T21:00:00.000+08:00

Bleah, got pwned.

Waited like 3 hrs plus before my heats officially began due to the rain. And when it did begin, it was still raining. And running in the rain totally sucks cause pple tend to lose balance and muscles get all stiff and got to like warm up 3 time. And retro jersey is simply fugly.

Okay, Im just sianed out cause i didnt meet my desired timing. And theres still 200m tmr.
Ought to do some SDT [self-directed trng] someday.

Other than that, the comp is taking up my whole weekend. Need time to do wad I NEED to do although it doesnt necessarily mean wad i WANT to do.

<27 tmr. ALL THE WAY ROYSTON.

2007-04-06T23:40:00.000+08:00

What can be better than a free concert with great company? =D

Ytd was inter-pdg and 200m heats. Ran 4X100m, 4X400m and 200m ytd and my butt ACHES. And my sling bag kept whacking my butt so it was really like awwwww... But nvm, it was worth the awwww... Cause my class peeps did 23/07 proud, especially the gals manz. They got 1st in their 4X100m, 2nd in their 8X50 and 4X400 heats. One of the guys team got 1st in their 4X100 and ours 2nd, losing by like one 15cm ruler? I got 3rd in both 4X400 and 200m heats, well, shud be happy i supposed?

After heats went to watch the AJ Mosique Des Saisons concert by the guitar ensemble and harmonica. And i just realised that ensemble is pronounced as "ON-SONG", COOL EH? Cant they like just spell it as onsong or wad. =.= Music was kinda sleep-inducing but I STAYED AWAKE thanks to countless poking here there. Saw my OGLs Jillian and Rachel performed as well. Cool.

Tmr is the day. Im just gonna go down there and sprint all out. Am just gonna meet my own target which is <13s. Am not gonna place others in mind and whack. AJ TRACK, ALL THE WAY! Retro Jersey, SHA!

Starry night, mesmerising eyes of yours.

2007-04-02T21:21:00.000+08:00

Bleah, hate uncertainties.

Once again, Im back here to my private little space to whine. Been feeling kinda tired, okay not kinda, but VERY tired to be precise during school. Lagging behind in both sleep and tutorials. Reaching home like almost 8 plus daily. Okay, screw the schooling part, wanna know more, ya can always refer to my first 3 months entries, its prolly about the same.

Taking part in 100m and 200m in the upcoming national juniors competition this weekend and come on, not that i lack self-esteem and all that but i do know my limit and i just aim not to get last. Gotta like improve my 2.4km timing to below 10mins, 120m timing <15s and 200m <24s. Missed Judo. Anw, congrats to Yihan and Brian for doing SJI C div proud. Rawk on guys! As for others, dun give up. Its like only the 3rd month this year. Theres still 4 more months to strive for that ultimate goal. Do yourselves and SJI proud eh.

Fine, i admit im prolly infatuated or wad but i guess i still need time. Really hope to like know ya better before proceeding with anything else. And for the time being, perhaps i just feel that i cant stick to any commitment. Give me time yar?

Mental battle once again. Zzz... Sleep.

2007-03-27T20:48:00.000+08:00

Earworm: Gui Ji.

Been ringing throughout my head the whole day, with me humming along, with me listening to it only the whole long journey home. Perhaps it is the lyrics which made that song such a hearfelt one to me, perhaps it was the song which i always coincidentally hear when -that- happens.

Been sorta thinking through things recently and I guess Im still that confused, that exhausted. I probably had my confidence in those things crushed, am so afraid to stand up and to try again. I don't want ugly things to repeat itself. Once in a while, I will reach the point whereby I just dun want to give a damn about it, but then, things still fall back into place.

I dunno. I dun dare. =(

我會發著呆然後忘記妳接著緊緊閉上眼想著那一天會有人代替讓我不再想念妳

2007-03-25T01:02:00.000+08:00

come on.

Was like talking to eugene on msn ytd and it just hit me that i didnt really try everything i could to get the external cca thing approved. And it just kinda makes me feel guilty. Perhaps i was too bothered about other things in life during the march holidays that it made me all weak and to just submit to fate. I was exhausted back then. All the damned systems and rules, fucking up life. I WANT TO JOIN BACK BUT WHY THINGS AINT EASY FOR ME. [i need no comments on this for the time being cause its prolly gonna make me think more abt it] Just let life decide.

Come to think of it, I am really just wandering aimlessly on my life's path now, following the shortest route possible. I got no plans ahead. I needed time to sort out bits and pieces but there wasnt sufficient.

I hate to be last. I just cant get commited to it, the desire to self-improve all that.

Went out today to watch bean's holidays with 23/07. Quite a nice show whereby u basically laugh ur ass off throughout the whole thing. Laughing is good yea? After that, gotta leave early to find kc, jh and xd to prepare for yl's birthday surprise. Hid in the staircase area there while we got alicia to "trick" yl into going there. Haha, i dunno how. =X I guess we all were too busy so we only got him a GREEN TEA cake and a card "To our beloved wife." XD

Stop indulging in self sympathy and move on. Stop complaining and give it all out. Stop depending on others roy.

Shuldn't rush things eh?

2007-03-20T20:12:00.000+08:00

23/07 COOL.

Okay, cant say that i know everyone in class or wad liao but then the fact that 7 pple went to AMK hub for lunch after just 1 day of knowing each other is COOL. Yea, compared to the usual four. >.< Haha, and pple do talk CRAP. Yea, as in u know, the usual sji-cj crap! Great fun though Im like exhausted now after 1 hour long back home in a packed train.

What we used to do. Time to move on.
Stop indulging myself in my own dreams.

2007-03-19T23:01:00.000+08:00

Phwoar, my neck aches from carrying that weight all day long. That must have been the heaviest collar I ever encountered. Not to mention that it is freaking thick and kinda cause itchiness. Gotta admit, seeing the whole of AJ wearing their uniform is pretty gloomy. The sight is a sea of dull grey, which coincide with the grey dark clouds today. Kinda weird considering that I had been used to seeing a sea of white throughout my education life.

Sat with 23/07 for attendance and I guess the starting part would be quite sian considering that there are like 2 groups of pple in my class which were previously from the same class. But then, they look kinda friendly unlike francis's class which had that freaking EGO DUDE in it. Guess its time to UNLEASH my socialising skills once again, AHA, which I hardly had. Prolly all the self confidence had been crashed by the track gals who daoed me twice. =.= Yea, not once but TWICE. Diff group of pple but then Im somehow having this kinda phobia liao.

Got so much sleep to catch up.

2007-03-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

Today is supposingly my last training. Will come back if got time though.

Got to start commiting to track now before I end up with some shitty testimonial by the end of next year. And from what I had hear from others, once the real semester begins, it is prolly gonna be one hella shit, so i guess all the more I wun have time to have too many commitments. Time to get my ass down to catching up lectures, tutorials and hardcore running. Cant really say that I have a passion for running but what yj said is true.

"It takes time to build up passion."

Seriously, I am going to miss judo. But then, hardly any point just training on sat which is like such an inconsistent training schedule and that i wun get recognised at all. Bleah, nvm.

Judo outing had always been a blast.

One week holiday is like pretty short, didnt have time to do what i really want. Spent time catching up with judokas especially yj but still, there are so many pple who I want to catch up with but cudnt. Pple like wang, josh, XD and you. Been trying to hang out with my AJ classmates as well but i guess meeting out is kinda tough yea.

I feel weird with AJ uniform on me.

2007-03-17T00:03:00.000+08:00

Well, what is supposed to be a 16/07 outing to sentosa ended up in a CJ judokas + 3SJI judokas outing to town.

Seriously, its damn tough to organise outing when everyone is like either busy with their cca or wad. But luckily i had some kinda backup program so that i wudnt spend another day just rotting at home.

Well, been quite some time since I last went out with the CJ judokas, like not on training days or what. And it was kinda cool, getting to know each other and all that. Today was exceptionally special because we had out juniors along, although there were only 3. But it was cool, seeing them all grown up, preparing for the big Os. Its like last time we used to gather around our seniors and just like talk for hours and finally its our time to be the seniors. Coolio stuff. Eating together, talking guys stuff. XD Had my first sakae sushi buffet and I cant say it was really that fantastic because after a while, you realised that you are basically stuffing yourself with sushi so it gets kinda sian.
I dont know if Im assuming things or wad.
I want to go sentosa. I want to just lay on the sand for the whole day and just soak in the sun. I want to go there and just enjoy and not think about anything at all.

2007-03-13T18:38:00.000+08:00

I guess I made up my mind. Don't question me about it, don't ask me why. So many factors to consider, so many thoughts colliding within my head. No choice but to give it up, not completely but yea. I wouldn't if I had a choice, a completely one way choice, a one which wouldn't be a hassle, a decision which would respect me, without all the damn retarded restrictions.

I couldn't get the support I need - parents never even really support my idea of it at all.
Maybe its just the time to hang up my gi.

I could never get the attention I so desire from YOU.
Don't let it fade. Please.

2007-03-09T22:41:00.000+08:00

Orientation 2 is over.

Bye to the old lame cheers and hooray to the march hols.

O2 was not bad. Gotta admit that the OGF did quite a good job although not as good as the OGL. But cheers, they are just the same age as us so yar. Aderse, funny name eh, consisted mainly of 16/07 and 3 other gals because the other people in the OG are gonna appeal out. Kinda retarded right, to like welcome the 2nd intake people with a subject talk marathon. Prolly bored their asses off. Did the same few dances again [which is cool] and watched click [for the 2nd time]. KATE BECKINSALE! XD Will you still love me in the morning
forever and ever, babe
16/07 outing to sentosa on wed. Hopefully everyone can make it.

But before that, its hell for me. Judo Training Camp. I WILL, AM GONNA SURVIVE IT.
Giving up isnt an alternative. ROYSTON ROYSTON ALL THE WAY. SHA!

2007-03-06T22:33:00.000+08:00

Bleah, wtf...

External CCA application got rejected. And that is seriously BULLSHIT, because all my seniors did that and even Xun Zhou now is doing it and I see no freaking reason for CJ to reject me just because SJI decided to move over and train at CJ. I AM TRAINING UNDER SJI. I mean its not my problem that SJI moved, its my secondary school for goddamn sake, and I trained freaking 4 years on that dojo where I even spill a whole palmful of blood on. In the first place, the dojo at CJ isnt even damn fantastic or wad, in fact the one in SJI wud be much better with proper maintainance. SO WHY?

The path ahead is so misty, so blurred. I know not what I want, I know not what is going to happen. Fucked up life.

I meant nothing.

2007-03-05T22:18:00.000+08:00

Last day for some of the peeps in AJ and well, most of the pple I know are staying but to those who arent, its still kinda sad to part. I met lotsa new nice people there, people who earned my respect and compliments and come to think about it, after they leave, its prolly quite hard to ever see them around again unless i take the trouble to organise outings or wad. Cam-whored today, in the library, in our home class and at the mrt station. Ponned lectures, watched spiderman in the library and played charades which was a hilarious one, making pple like the scholars and those quiet pple open up. Coolio stuff. Kinda sad to leave track. Its like Im finally getting to know everyone there and... Hmm, yar, but there are time to part. =/

2007-03-04T10:43:00.000+08:00

I will be okay. I know i wouldn't. My heart bleeds. The painful feeling's haunting me again, stabbing, suffocating me. Selfish things i once said, i wun repeat. i tot it was meant to be, i knew not what went wrong. I tried again, but i failed. In reality, the same good thing never happen twice.
I will be.

2007-03-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

Finally, YJ got his ass back on the dojo. And aha, all that crap about tough hockey training, erhem erhem, which is tougher manz? Ankle haven't fully recover, hurts when lifting, elbow as well. But who cares, Im gonna try and get back into my old form and if possible, before the upcoming national indiv in march. So much to catch up, so much to train. 2 years.

Keep Holding On thats what i keep telling myself

You're not alone
together we stand
i'll be by your side
you know i'll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
theres no place to go you know i wont give in
no i wont give in.
Im trying not to
Chorus :
Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.
I dunno how long more i can convince myself
So far away i wish you were here
before it's too late this could all disappear
before the doors close, this comes to an end
but with you by my side i will fight and defend
i'll fight and defend yeah yeah.
I grew more and more uncertain
Chorus
I'm tired of initiating things, of crying
Hear me when i say, when i say
i believe nothing gonna change, nothing gonna change destiny
what ever is meant to be
will work out perfectly
yeah yeah yeah yeah
lalalalalalala...
Is this the real you or?
People don't understand me. So do I. Neither do I understand you.

2007-03-02T23:40:00.000+08:00

Time passed kinda fast yar?

Its like 2 months ago when we just got our PAE result and I got posted to AJ, which I initially found no life in it, went through the orientation camp 1 and then joined track. Following that was the release of O lvl result and now we guys are awaiting for the JAE result which would be released next tues. I guess I had been pretty dao the first 3 months but nonetheless, still make lotsa new friends mainly in my class, OG and track j2 snrs plus j1 guys. And supposingly today is my last track dinner because Im trying to take external CCA and taking track with judo is prolly gonna kill me both physically and academically. But its not like I got no interest in track, track is cool, the pple in it are cool. They totally rawk my socks off - all the gossips, scandals, craps blah blah blah but seriously, to kang seng though he wouldnt ever read this, i guess track just isnt for me. Judo will be but I gotta get all my injuries off my head first. Show no weakness. Gonna miss trng with ya peeps.

Next mon wud prolly be my last lesson with 16/07 and seriously, i will MISS THE GUYS in 16/07 cause they are so FREAKING CRAPPY that they remind me of SJI, DOING INSANELY RETARDED THINGS [like playing with mouseballs (AJ still uses mouse with balls), Irwan's stupid sudden actions, Zhi Hao's momentarily burst of funny jokes, Canaan's also sudden stupid actions. These dudes make AJ life much more interesting. But nonetheless, 16/07 as a whole had been cool. Great funky form tutor, air-conditioned home class etc etc.

Parting is part of human's life so yar, to all those not staying in AJ or wad, Good luck.

I wouldn't mind stoning the whole day long as long as I have you in front of me, for me to look at.

2007-02-22T21:54:00.000+08:00

Was visiting my ye ye's sister on tues who is quite old. Its like as the year passed, I visit lesser and lesser of my older relatives. [Ya shud know why] And her husband got lai ren chi dai [I dunno wad is it called in eng] but all i know is that his memory is failing and things close to him start to fade away. Right now, he even forgotten my dad's name and i guess that by next year, he wudnt even rmb my dad.

Just some food for thought:

Ever wondered how you'd be when you're old in your 60s, 70s? As you live each day seeing more and more of the people around you disappear, as you live each day in fear thinking when it'd be your turn. As your memory starts failing and you start forgetting about things that had happen before, starting from the insignificant and gradually, to the things close to you and memories sweet or bitter, painful or joyous and finally the one you swore to protect, your wife/husband. Would it be one with many wishes, dreams, goals unfulfilled which you thought you could after you retired but realised you no longer have the youth and vigour to do so?

E to the MO.
Lead me, guide me.

2007-02-19T23:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR DUDES!

Just got back from Genting Highlands and feeling pretty much awake now after sleeping for like 7 plus hours on the bus. The trip wasnt as fantastic as I imagined, prolly because there was no mean of communication between all of us and most of the time the whole big big family is not together unlike the previous years in tour group. Damn, shud have bring some walkie talkie or wad. And it SUCKS to be like a like a 16 year old teenager cause you feel pretty old but you cant do certain things like going to the casino and gotta stick to the usual mode of entertainment. In case you guys dunno me well enough, Im the youngest in my family and all of them have reached the supposingly legal age of 21 while Im not. And while everyone were like inside there trying out their luck, I got left alone. Didnt really do anything exceptionally unique there such as going to the theme park or wad. Only visited the Ripley's Believe It or Not museum today but gotta leave after 1 hr inside because we got to check out. It is quite an interesting place to be in but regretted not going there earlier. Tried the firing range thingy as well. Bleah, it wud be great to have either judo clique or 203 clique there as well. Seriously, we wud rock the peak down. HOW COME NO ONE SUPPORTED MY IDEA OF TRIP TO GENTING LAST YEAR??? >.<

I just realised Im getting old. My bro had like turn from 25 last genting trip to 30 now. 2 more years to NS for me and then Uni then adulthood. Phwoar.

I'd rather smell fart than smoke.

2007-02-14T20:24:00.000+08:00

Well, made my JAE choice last night at around 1, am going AJ and am gonna join back judo again. End result, see how yar?

Officially celebrated Valentine's Day for the first time in my life. Okay, maybe it isnt the ideal one on one date but a double date instead but well, it was still okay. There was some last minute desperate shopping and all that but things turn out well. Feeling a mixed of emotions now, positive one lar, duh. Wad day is it today manz? XD Thanks for everything. You made it special.

Back to school tomorrow after the quite long JAE break without seriously doing much work. Am gonna just focus during lectures and tutorials before fri, CNY celebrations and then ta-da. GENTING [pronounced as KEN TING] here I come!

Muggggg....

2007-02-12T01:09:00.000+08:00

Bleah. Why i feel this sense of coldness now?

The feeling kinda sucks.
Stay strong.

2007-02-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

Headed down to Bedok today to support the judokas from SJI, CJC and FORZARA Judo Club in Kyu Grade Competition. For the first time in like 4 years, this is my first year not playing it and I somehow regretted it. >.< Like theres only four people in my category while there are like 9886217835812 pple last year in mine? Initially I thought cause I like only trained 3 times this year so prolly gonna get owned or what but then leonard who got gold told me he like only trained twice this year so yar, i was like =_= damnit.

Anw, congrats to my fellow SJI peeps namely ZHENYI, Boon Ping, Joey, Wesley and Andre. Zhenyi, first medal after 5 years of plain shit tough training. Good Job manz, ya choke kinda freaked me out as well lar. Congrats to the CJ and FJC medalists as well. As for people like Yihan, who lost due to the always frequent kayu referee, nvm. Theres three more competition this year, train harder and made use of the experience gained in this comp eh?

Project V XD

2007-02-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

Okay, today is the day when we reaped the harvest from the seeds we had sowed 4 years ago, the release of the O level result. Well, dun really know what to say. I mean in the first place I wasnt really even feeling nervous/excited about the result and yet, I expected myself to fare DAMN well. But well, I got 10 and I cant really say I am contented over it, especially the A2s which bites so much. Just felt that I didnt meet my parents' high expectations set in place by my bro and sis. Although they didnt really say anything and in fact, sounded encouraging, I guess I let them down. Still rmb the release of PSLE score, when I scored 1 mark less than my bro, my mum scolded me although I felt that I did pretty well. That left a scar within me.

Somehow felt SJI so unfamiliar when I went back today. I realised I made alot of much better and much more understanding friends in AJ. Pple there were much more sensitive in their thinking and were much more encouraging. Come to think about it, there wasnt really anyone who I could turn to when I was pretty much desperate and in need of help. Each had their own clique and unfortunately I thought that mine sucks. Still missed the prayers and cheers in SJI though and Ms Goh whom really helped me out alot the last two years. Anw, Congrats to Auggy for achieving 10 A1s and XD and Lex for achieving 8 A1s.

Now comes the choosing JC part once again. I dun wanna think about it.
Somewhat feeling uncertain about myself and things happening now.
Aint gonna lose control, Am gonna stay strong.

2007-02-04T17:11:00.000+08:00

Oh man, this god damn feeling sucks.

Seriously, I dun have enough time to do what I want and ought to do. I somehow feel suffocated now, staring blankly at the maths tutorials on my table, having no clues at all on how to solve despite reading through the notes twice, thrice. And not to mention, its the first thing I had been working since afternoon. I just feel inferior or a sense of kiasuism, when there are people in my class who are actually so ahead of tutorials while Im like stuck here, struggling to follow up and barely making it. They make things look so easy while in fact, its not. Half the time I dun understand what is going on in lectures and most of the time, I dun have time to even read through notes to at least try and understand. Why other PCME class ends like so freaking early, while mine ends at like 4plus? Why others can like easily adapt to JC life while I cant? Why is everything so cramped together? Why am I stuck in this fucked up meritocracy system? Its my life damn it. I rather go bathe my rabbits now and bring them over than to do HW. I rather go exercise than stone over some stupid questions which I prolly gonna have no use in the future. I rather talk with ya on msn than to pretend that u arent online.

I feel the stress. But I dont need consolation. I just need a place like this where I can express how I feel completely. Seriously, no consolation. I can get through this.

Now its back to squeezing my brain juice, thats what the world wants.

2007-02-02T20:13:00.000+08:00

Phwoar, living life without internet kills manz.

But then, the past week had been pretty tiring as well so I doubt I wud have much time to blog also. Had been busy moving house. Yep, u got it, I moved house liao and sadly, IT WASNT EXCITING AT ALL ONE LOR. I rmb last time i always thought that it wud be but then, now i kinda missed my old house with my own personal room and thrashy guys gadgets like xbox, tv, powerful hi-fi, posters and postcards with skippy hoppy there as well. My mum like dun wanna me to bring skippy hoppy over lor. Sadists. And sleeping with another man in the same room is like so weird. Haha, not any man lar, my bro. But hes like 29 so yar. Its quite tough for a messy guy like me to actually keep my room clean or wad since my cupboard is mainly white. In fact, i do have my messy finger print all around le.

Wed, we went to turf city to run for track training and well, it was a freaking tough route, with 200m plus uphill and a damn mental testing long zig zag route. The scenery was nice, the countryside feeling, dun really felt like i was in SG there lor. But then, the place quite forested and i got bitten like shit all over my bodies and red freaking dots are like popping up everywhere. My shins are cracking.

Today, had cross country at bishan park instead of the usual maritchie or however u spell that place coz they were supposingly to have renovations going on or wad. The route quite nice to run on but then, maybe because its my first time running that route, i completed the run still feeling pretty well for a sprint. Bleah. >.< Hope im at least top 40. Before that, went out with 16/07 for class lunch although it wasnt really considered a class lunch since we were all splited up. Still not very close with some of them yet.

Lovefiesta at JJC tmr.
At times, u seriously do make me feel damn sweet. <3 Cupcake.

2007-01-27T11:09:00.000+08:00

Getting the hang of it.

The week had been kinda interesting, with all the funny AJ health campaign going on. Also got much much closer to my new classmates with peeps such as mugilan, shaan and irvan [only acsi guy i saw in AJ now]. Hmm, but i guess theres nothing thats pretty much worth blogging about now. Been trying to organise a class outing but then it seems like everyone isnt free during weekends or wad so its prolly gonna be just a dinner or wad during the weekday.

Ytd was OG outing, okay, or maybe its call a Coolio outing. Most pple are like involved in their cca or wad so in the end, only like 6 out of 54123412 pple turned up. Headed to play pool at paradiz, a place which i hate alot though. And surprisingly, I SAW JOSHUA LEE AND BENEDICT CHOY. Yea, and although we are like kinda cold to each other liao [mainly thanks to Dota and some interests conflict], it was still cool seeing them again after so long. And although they prolly wun see this, I MISS OUR SEC3 INSANELY DUMB OUTINGS!

And i gotta like pon track for the outing. Not that I dun like track or wad. In fact, track is hella cool. Ever see a sports that like gossip so much? Gossip while jogging, while cooling down, after training. NO! Haha. "Introducing AJ TAF Gossip Club. Want to know more about the unveiling secrets of deep heat, and the scandalous juicy gossips? JOIN TRACK."

Got quite a huge chunk of homework which im gonna CHIONG TONIGHT. XD OH YEA!!!!

Moving house on thurs.

Sugar, Sweetener, Condensed Milk or You.
Aishiteimas. =)

2007-01-21T10:40:00.000+08:00

Crap, cant ya guys give me a break?

Initially wanted to wake up at 12 today, ya know, i need like 12 hours of sleep but then, woke up to face a chaotic family again. Naggy mum nagging all about the new house stuff with her insanely illogical arguement. Seriously I have this freaking urge to shout at her to shut up, yea, im bu xiao but im sorta feeling all shitty and crappy now so i dun really give a damn.

Gonna go Ikea later to get my bed, sofa bed, clock, photo frames, so and so...

Prolly its because of the lack of new year resolutions, i started off this year in a mess. I had been whining like dunno every now and then to everyone I know, be it my peeps or to my OG, to my class etc and although I know I shudnt be doing that, Im still dunno that. I dun wanna be weak again, yea?

Cant really blog now since I gotta like rush and change.

What I seriously want now is a long long one day break away from reality, to be locked inside my room, blasting music, watching DVDs and basically just stone and dun think about anything cause anymore thoughts in my head is prolly gonna make me explode.

2007-01-18T19:39:00.000+08:00

Bleah.

My official timetable started today and I guess it was not bad lar. Tutorials kinda cool. But then I guess I didnt had a really good start to my timetable. I guess by now, most J1 prolly heard my name liao and they must be wondering who I am. Not saying Im famous or wad, but my name got publicised during morning assembly. It goes sth like this: "May these following students please see the HOD of student affair after morning assembly outside dance studio - ROYSTON CHIA..." Yea, ya guys must be thinking whats the commotion about. Well, loser me was CAUGHT playing BRIDGE. Yep, ya aint seeing things, BRIDGE. What a loser I am, uh-huh... I seriously dun see the need to like announce our names through assembly, we didnt like lock someone inside some sewer [which i was once accused of but even then, my name wasnt even mentioned] or start some riots or wad. Plus the other pple who I was playing bridge with were like gals, some even damn guai one who was trying bridge out for the first time? Wth lar... My conduct prolly went from excellent to poor now. I shudnt like elaborate too much in case I get sued or wad. Internet isnt safe.

Aint gonna be going home early from today onwards, school ends at around 6 plus or 7 plus everyday? Mon wed fri track till 7, tues thurs pract till 6.

Teachers' impression of me is prolly gonna be damn bad now.
And seriously, I feel like some piece of crap now.
But then, I sure hope ya are understanding enough.

2007-01-16T17:43:00.000+08:00

Been a while since I last blog, hardly got the time nowadays, cause got track, sat judo and then outings. >.<

Anw, Cheers for the CJ j2 Judokas. Orientation seriously rawkz. It was so wild, so dirty and its what a good orientation should be able. Never really had a orientation like this before since we had always been holding orientation together with the sec1 with different lvl of maturity so we gotta like take out some games instead. Nasty water bombs, slimy coffee stained drumstick and brown with mud watermelon. Oh yea... Went out with judokas for dinner at first before going off to find KC, YX and YH nearby. Sun was spent with them again together with YL and AL at YH house. What is supposed to be doing tutorials stuff ended up doing jigsaw puzzle. Cool. Did i mention i was damn happy on sat because that was the first time i had any freedom of speech for the week. Pple there do understand me. XD

My physical condition pretty cham now. Sat trng, calves cramped 5 times, ytd slightly injured thighs and today calves tighten again after pe. PE so far had been damn slack.

Felt damn EMO on mon. Prolly because I feel restricted once again. Somemore teacher started the day with GP homework and i was like wtf. But then, at least i had my OGmates around whom I suddenly opened up to. Bombarded them with nonsensical shit. And just when im like getting to know them well enough, we got to split up into our class. And currently, i know no one who talk crap as well other than this fellow tracker. =.= Bleah, sian.

Im currently lost... mentally lost...

2007-01-11T16:18:00.000+08:00

Coolio, Im gonna be either an AJC Tracker or Squasher for the time being.

Today was kinda interesting. Alpha programme talk followed by another mysterious talk. Before the mysterious talk begins, there was this special annoucement for all the gals, sch team players, dsa/appeal pple and NYF participants to leave. So I reckon its gonna be sth related to guys or wad, prolly NS? But i was so damn wrong.

CHOIR AUDITION. WTF?!!! ^*&$(!^%~ And only 2 guys remain in my OG. [Including me] while the gals were prolly laughing their ass off when they saw the whole thing going on from the audi gallery. Supposingly, we had to like go la~la~la~la~la~la~la from low pitch to high pitch. But dun get it wrong, obviously I ran away from it lar. Singing songs for some band, prolly, but that, DREAM ON! It just aint for me.

Ytd CCA carnival and i realised that AJ is quite a good place for newbies to like join cause other than bballers and volleyballers, no one else DSA there. So yea, we can like start new in any CCA without much fear except during the competition period. And I met Serene!!! My pri 1-2 classmate whose dad taught me how to cycle. Cool manz. But I cudnt recognise her initially.

Mum strongly oppose the idea of me going cj when i proposed it to her ytd. I guess she just dun get it that CCA is now like freaking impt compared to my siblings' years and I dun like the idea of not proving myself anything in the 2 years to come or trying to get myself involved in too many things. YL and KC joining CJ Judo and now, thats gonna be really interesting. =D

Eye contact eh? XD

I hate pple who smoke especially those kiddos but leave them to be, they have only 20 plus years to go before they start getting chronic lung cancer.
I hate pple who are bengs, who think they are so damn cool, who are marvellous actors and have no freaking consideration when in fact all they have is nothing.
And I think gals who fall for bengs are freaking dumb cause all they get is prolly nothing except passive smoke and lotsa trouble.

AJC BAND: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LQH1EwSD2S0 CHECK IT OUT

2007-01-08T17:05:00.000+08:00

Im starting to miss my peeps now- both the judo and the 203 gang.

Am gonna have lotsa lotsa, i seriously mean lotsa lectures this week onwards. And then, theres like lotsa breaks in between in which i really dunno wad to do. Because most pple are prolly in their sec sch groups and the other josephians who are at AJ now are those whom I cant really like talk to one, except for marcus and hwee sheng whom I rarely see around. Oh well, can't wait for the week to end before i try going back for sat trng to bring back my social life and myself although i guess i wud prolly be exhausted by then.

2hr journey back and forth... =/

2007-01-06T11:34:00.000+08:00

3 days had past since I entered AJ and come to think of it, AJ isnt that bad afterall. =)

Day1 kinda sucks because I lost my voice and as u people know, the first impression counts. So I realised I sounded kinda wimpy when I started introducing myself with a soft coarse whisper. There were lotsa different schools, half of them consisting of neighbourhood schools and different people also - some including the studious students, some being "interesting" looking and some kinda cool. But then, didnt really click well with them cause I CANT TALK. DAMN. Lotsa cheering but didnt feel the sji fanatic cheering spirit there. Some of the cheers are pretty cute, I gotta admit. For eg, the fly kite cheer!

We fight like champions, fight fight
We win like champions, win win
We fight like champions, win like champions
All the rest can go fly kite
Fly kite, fly kite, all the rest can go fly kite
Fly kite, fly kite, all the rest can go fly kite.

And theres the who say cheer, which i found damn nice and AJ clapping kinda cheer. Shud demo next time. XD

Learned Hip hop dance for the first time but cudnt catch it cause my body is freaking stiff from judo training.

Day 2, still didnt know them that well. Got stupid subject talk marathon that bored my ass off. The bio HOD kinda scared me so bad that i nearly wet my pants. [Yea, right] And had couple dance. >.< Well, lets just say that I didnt have an ideal dance partner, yea? Nvm, shud just treat it as a preparation for the future clubbing exp in 2 years to come. Nonetheless, i enjoyed it.

Day 3, most high manz. Mainly because our OGL got screwed by some pretty unreasonable teacher for not making us sit according to register no. =.= Wth. So we decided to prove ourselves and won 2 games in a row for once. [By CHEATING obviously] Had an empty classroom in which we played whacko and got to know each other alot alot better. The campfire wasnt really fantastic but the programmes rawkz. Dancing in the rain is just pure fun and hiphop is pure coolness. The familiar SJI spirit came back to me again.

After that, most of our OG with our OGL headed to J8 for dinner. Well, thats cool! How many OG ya see going out after just 3 days? ONE! Haha, kinda interesting that the first thing we talked about is O level. XD

AJC Vrala 2007, Cougario Concolor 2007 rawkz my socks off.
Many thanks to OGL, funky Chengfeng, caring Jilain[spelt like that] and blur Rachael. =D

2007-01-02T21:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!

Spent new year eve as usual, not at home. Was sorta supposed to have a bbq with my relatives but didnt turn up since my mum had always resented the idea of a bbq for i dunno why. She prolly just dun like huge gathering i supposed? Anw, spent afternn at YH hse doing lotsa bullshitty stuff such as taboo, hide and seek =X etc etc. Prolly gonna be the last few times we could actually do that since we are turning 17, which is somewhat like a point of maturation. Am gonna miss those games manz. After that, headed over to XD's hse for BBQ. Since xd was with another group of peeps, we decided to leave him alone and sat at some playground and started humming and singing all the CRAPPIEST songs we can think about at around 10.40 or wad. Shouldnt elaborate on that but the SJI songs did hit me. It was all of sudden that I realised that we wun be studying together again in SJI, no more eating together at the mat store, no more retarded tie and no more JOSEPHS cheer. And when we talked about the dumbass things we did in sec2, i do missed those days although i hate how i used to be mocked at and stuff like but...

Was able to see fireworks from xd's new hse and it was sweet manz. Lotsa unique one which i didnt even in HK last.

It just hit me... That im the sort whos gonna miss SJI a hell lot.

AJC tmr, bring it on.

2006-12-29T13:04:00.000+08:00

Woah, now thats a fast one.

This hols had been gone pretty fast and i havent really found much time to like just stay at home and rot and stone and reorganise my stuff. Been outside half the time for xmas, badminton, outings and stayover and my Os stuff still kinda here and there in my room. Didnt really spent much time at home with my family as well. =/ But then, theres still so much I wud wanna do but i guess i prolly wun be able to.

New year is approaching, 2007. My year came and past rather fast, as in 2006, which is my most snr year in SJI and come to think of it, I didnt do myself proud. My dreams, my aims, my goals didnt come true. Since sec2, everything starts collapsing and nothing seriously good happened to me. Well, life's sad. Sure hope 2007 would be a much better year. As for new year resolutions, screw it! XD

Bleah...

2006-12-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

I'm FREE. My teeth are free, i mean, from their every tight locking braces. Yep, went ta take off braces today after 2 years of hella torture from it - the mispronounciation, fugly fat dry lips, big mouth, bloody lips while training and unbearable painful nights from the bands. My plan two years ago was considered successful since i managed to get it off before JC. Wud be getting the retainers on wed and that wud be another matter according to many who told me that they wud rather put on their braces than the retainers. Oh well... Shud just enjoy one day of bracesless pleasure. However, after taking it off today, I was sorta entrenched in this EMO mood for the long journey home - partially because I recalled why I initially even thought of putting braces on and how much things had changed ever since I put it on and that including me. Braces had been with me through quite lotsa things and its somehow grew to become a part of my mouth. Yea, it feels weird feeling the smooth texture of the teeth instead of the usually jutting out braces and Im able to move my mouth freely at night, which I usually don't because I had to tie some band to it. =/

PAE result: AJC. I can't say i'm really happy over it but i guess i should like just look forward it. Time to mature and start accepting changes.

2006-12-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

The past two days had been rather fulfilling. Went ECP ytd with KC, YX, YL, AL and KX ytd and it was FUN! I mean i havent been to ECP since last year with cal, don, kx, bp and sk =.= if i didnt recall wrongly and last year we didnt do anything much. Took some weird bus from Bedok and saw the the first IJ sch up close and I just realised IJ KC is like so freaking near to SPS. Anw, walked and rented our transport which is a bike for the whole day and it was damn tiring! In fact, im getting slightly sick from cycling cause the quality of the bike there sucks. Spoilt brakes, slightly soft tires and rusty seat adjuster or wadeva it is. Anw, ate lunch at the Hawker there. My first time and the satay, fried oyster and lala there kick ass manz. We all suck the lala spicy sauce till it was almost dry and till our lips were burning. Satay was fat and tender. Yummm... Coconut drink wasnt that nice but $2 is worth the fun a coconut can provide. "Tortured" the coconut till its damn holey. After that, took the drinks cup to make sandcastle at the beach. It was quite successful initially until our square became like a trapezium fortress and the reservior of the castle refused to get filled. Randomly find some litters around and added it in. For eg. 100plus bottle cap = 100 plus company and a whale figure as... Underwater world. Our pple house were merely holes in the ground. Cycled again till the end and this time i had my hp along so took some vid of planes taking off from changi. Then on the way back, there was this heavy downpour and all of us got quite drenched but not that fully drenched my gi after trng. Hid there till 6 plus, playing bridge before leaving.

Today, met with them again to go to Yak Huan's[I aint sure i spelt it right or wad]. Initially didnt really wanted to because i only met her before once with the rest during open house and that time i didnt really talk much except trying to use davis's cold body parts joke to like interact. But it wasnt that bad afterall. Baked cookies at her house and watched movie. Watched Saw2 which was a freaking sick show but still quite interesting and deathnote. Saw is so cleverly crafted lar, twist after the other and the choices the acters had to make are so diao? Yea, i just cant find the right words. It like theres this death mask stuck to ur face thats gonna snap in 60sec and the key is found behind your eye only. Would you like dig into your own eye just to survive or would you just say some last prayer before you die? Interesting eh. Deathnote to me felt more like some artistic movie. Its a pretty smart, witty show, somewhat like the island. Except that the plot is interesting, how these two people pit on against each other to see who can outwit who. A boy who posesses a deathnote who used it at first to kill criminal but later become so overly obsessed that winning this detective L seems to be the most crucial even to the extend of killing FBIs. Did I mention that her neighbour's and her dog are CUTE. First dog in a long long time which i dont see going around barking like siao. For eg. Look at HT's pepper or YJ's Ki siao dog. GO FIFI and CHERRY, WIN PEPPER and YJ's DOG.

PAE result out tomorrow at 8am. Exciting eh. I hope its not AJ. Oh man, plz dont.

2006-12-07T11:42:00.000+08:00

Oh, don't you just hate those people in authority.

Headed to PS after tues trng to find KC and JH before heading to XD hse. Well, its almost like the first GUYS night out with them for this year. Yea, pple with gf ya knw. But guys night out was fun because u can do lotsa ridiculously retarded and GUYS stuff without any gals around. Woohoo...

At XD's hse, played like a few weeks of heroes before deciding to go for a swim. Yea, at around 11 plus but then once we get into the water, some retarded bo liao guard just have to come and spoil the fun, saying wad house rule blah blah blah, cannot swim after 10, unfair to others. =.= Piles of bullshit, i don't see his point. Really. I mean how much noise can splashing water generate? We guys were like talking at some minimum volume liao lor plus that rule is prolly unfair to pple working OT who cant swim like only after 10. If only life can be like splinter cell, we wud prolly sneak behind him, whack him and then throw him into the pool. So after that, we went back up, ate, pump bicycles tires then cycled to ECP at around 12. Last time i cycled from one end to the other of ECP was like a year ago lor. Anyway, it was great fun though my legs were like going to cramp any moment plus my butt hurts cause the 2 mountain bikes were taken by XD and KC liao and im like stuck with this oldie bike, those in China with small tires without any suspension. >.< Cycled till the end where we can see the changi airport runway. Marvellous sight with airplane flying directly over u. I think u can like hit the plane with a slingshot lor, it was that close. Wanted to take pics but didnt bring hp along.

By the time we reached back, it was almost 3. Took turn to shower while KC and JH was like looking all over their friendster accounts. Tsk tsk. After that, took turns to play heroes till like 8.30am before we guys are knocked out. Squeezed with 2 other guys on the same bed while XD took the floor. I felt so on the verge of falling off the bed lor. Next morning, woke up at 12 plus and played games till 5 before we headed for PS for dinner with YX. Didnt played tennis or basketball cause all of us were insanely knocked out and felt like wlaking zombies.

Im still tired.

2006-12-04T20:24:00.000+08:00

Do I look like i freaking have a choice?

Got forced back to work again today. Went to my dad's workplace at pasir panjang on sat so missed camp in an attempt to stop my mum nagging. But it didnt work. Okay, the first day wasnt so bad. Walk around, talked to my relatives there. Then last night, sorta argue/discuss with my dad and bro about blah blah blah and he came to the conclusion that i should go back and help but i felt theres no need. Went to sleep and couldn't get to sleep cause i was thinking whether to go or not. If i don't go, my dad would feel sad? my mum wud continue nagging. But if i go also got nth for me to do? I got like so much hols resolution to do. Plus tmr, peeps got trng and prolly can't go out with them. I felt like crap cause i feel so helpless, stressed out and even frustrated that i cant do a thing.

Woke up at 6plus this morning and followed my dad with my ever sulking black face. I was darn pissed. Down there, i lazed around and basically stoned in an empty office till 10am. Like wth. Even when clerk came, i also had nothing to do but just look at her type out invoices. I was so bored, its almost like ellen woo lessons. Took out my phone and searched for random targets to SMS. Occasionally i get some tasks to do but thats like in every 20 mins. I might as well stay at home and start clearing my room. I mean if theres like things to do and they cant manage, i wun mind helping. But wads the point if i have nothing to do? And my mum just asked me to go again tmr. Screw it, today is my last. I mean it.

I heard joey and yvonne injured themselves during TT. Take care dudez.
All i ask for is just for someone whom i can confide in. Is it such a difficult wish? Im tired of keeping every damn thing to myself. I just wanna let it out but is there a place for that? Is there someone whos openhearted enough to just listen to my everylasting whining. dream on i should.

2006-11-29T11:33:00.000+08:00

Is that my fantasy or is that really sentosa?

Went back to sentosa on mon although intending to go last week and it was great fun. I love the sun, love the babes, love the sand, love the sea, love the balls, love/hate the rain. Haven't been able to just hang out with my friends for the whole day and just do nothing productive except eating, talking and playing for damn long. The morning sun felt refreshing though the sand was hot. Found the rest and we started to bbq our food. Initially wasnt really expecting to work out but it made wonders. After that, played volleyball, though we suck, it was still fun. Tactics developed by our team fused with judo manoeurves. Back whack plus back breakfall. Insanely crazy. After that it rained and it was pretty heavy with thunders and lightnings. So 6 of us took cover inside the small shelter and continued cooking. [We cooked for the whole day] and somehow came up with the discussion whether lightning will strike the sea or not, because if it does strike the sea, wun all the fish die? Hmmm.... Been like more than a year since i last got retardedly drenched and though it may sound ridiculous but i do love it. XD

After sentosa, I HEADED TO VIVOCITY. Aint no longer a dinosaur. XD Initially wanted to find trudy and kian long at their workplace but they werent there so we went to shop. Ben and Jerry was nice. Cookie dough rawkz my soaking wet t-shirt. =D Im gonna get a tub of that one day. Saw this damn funky coolio nike sling bag and i was infatuated with it. Been having the idea of getting a new sling for quite a while liao. But then, the sling costs a freaking $103. Any kind soul who wanna get that for me for Xmas?

At close to mid night, i met up with the rest again. Haha, at my house though. Played bridge, xbox and watched break-up. Wah lao eh, it was such a irritating naggy movie la. Someone told us that it was quite funny lor. Tsk tsk. Next day, chiong for trng.

Perhaps it was due to the lack of sleep or overexertion, i had some slight headache even till now. Still feeling kinda blur and light headed now. I feel bad, for not being to make it through all the way with yj for his first trng. But then, who asked him to give me additional 5 spoons of porridge to me?! >.< Seriously cant do shoulder throw for nuts now. Arms still hurt if i try. Oh well, maybe i shud ask jason to teach me uchimata. Heh heh heh.

I will prolly be there for the first day of trng camp. Till then...

Sentosa in the rain, doesnt it looks much better without the ships in the background?

VIVO!

2006-11-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

Holy shit, I swore i nearly got killed just now. >.< Yea, i did the quite insane thing - of going back for training. Its like like riding a skateboard up a 60degree inclined hill. Yep, that serious. I had officially become one lump of fat that bounce according to ding and my abs are like CRAPZ. Somemore going sentosa on mon. Any tips on saving your abs in 3 days? =/ Anw, back to the trng part. After warm-up, i was already quite tired liao coz of the 30 push-ups. Then, after warmup was groundwork. Supposed to complete 15 laps of prawns in 7 minutes. But i thought just do 15 laps. Then times's up, supposed to do 2 X no. of laps not completed of moving push-up. So since i did 9, i am supposed to do like 12 laps. Then after lap 3, i realised that i was the only one left so i er... stopped. Got killed during butterfly thanks to the moving push-up. Gotta admit, im weak and old now. All those mugging, eating, mugging. =( Shud start running every alternate days, do push ups and sit ups. But then, i missed trng together with all my sec4 peeps.

PAE program ending tmr at 4pm and im still not sure of where to go.
Training camp next week. Shud i go? Sec1 was like asking me whether am i going for sat and trng camp lar. Die liao. I dun really got the desire. Prolly i come back on the last day for randori.

2006-11-20T11:21:00.000+08:00

IM BACK!!!!

Haha, kinda lag but Os OVER!!! Since fri, duh. Yea, Os was great fun manz but im still glad its over. Hoping that i can still go NJ although i think i screwed up both my humans. WHY NO JAP, NO GORBBY? Anw, after fri, that moment was splendid. Got out of my seat and literally shouted with almost the whole sec4 cohort. Went out, torn entry proof and start throwing it around. Went canteen, tear my elect.hist notes which didnt came out as well. XD Headed off to town to watch Casino Royale which was soso. Perhaps it was exam stress that caused me to laugh my ass off at some particulary sick scene. Haha, me and hsuante laughed so hard till the chair shook. And ht was seriously stressed out. This small boy behind shouted:"Yipee, the bad guy is dead" and was met with a violent: "SHUT UP" from ht. When the lights came back on, we realised the small boy's mum was just sitting behind us. =X

Wanted to watch step up but casino royale lasted for 230 so we cudnt catch the 7plus show. So headed down to wheellock in an attempt to hunt for my game. Mission Splinter Cell Double Agent....
That game was what i had been studying for since os start lor so i was really dying to get it. But then cudnt find at wheellock, so i decided to drag my friends to heeren. And just nice, the game shop was no longer there. At that time i was damn desperate, so i persuade everyone go PS. Took some random bus there but when we reached, COMICS COLLECTION CLOSE LIAO. Best Denki oso dun sell. So i guess i had to resigned to fate and get it the next day which was fri. Cudnt find it at some game shop near my house as well and i was seriously panicking. I was even thinking of going to buy on ebay but JUST NICE, STILL GOT ONE LEFT IN COMICS COLLECTION. Phew.

After the hunt, went paradiz [i hate that place] but since its the end of os, i went there for pool. Pool was fun. Especially if u are damn tyco like me. Was aiming at like ball dunno wad but i sorta use the side of the stick to hit instead and it hit the ball beside the ball i was aiming for and miraculously, it went in. Then, there was once when i chip the white ball into the hole first followed by the ball i was aiming for. Pro or not, how often u see soccer tactics applied in pool manz. Haha, then there was once when i was hitting the black ball liao, i hit the ball but it missed the hole i was aiming for so yar, thought it was over. Ben was about to go take his shot and dunno why, there was the sound of the ball dropping into the hole AND IT WAS THE BLACK BALL. XD Aint i lucky or wad.

Spent $100 bucks plus during the weekend. Scary lor. $70 on my game and $40 for my dad's birthday gift. Actually, the gift was partially for myself oso. Haha, i went to fitting rm and try first before buying the gift. =X Opps.

MY XBOX IN MY ROOM. ^&%^$)(!!

We do waste alot of paper. [Yoko yoko is there for size comparison]

And my bro bought me a steering wheel ytd as my belated birthday gift. Cool shit manz. Can drag my mum to play games as well le. =)
Off to marina.

2006-11-14T17:13:00.000+08:00

Woohoo, 3 MORE DAYS! ITS SO NEAR I CAN EVEN TASTE THE SMELL.

Amaths was fun. How i wished they would like isolate us in individual room instead so i can have the chance to stand up and shout "OH YESH!" Haha, dats wad i normally do when i solve some chim questions. Well, anyway, os amaths was straight forward compared to SJI. Amaths is like a trip from Boon Lay to Changi, just take mrt can liao but some schools insist that students take train to choa chu kang first, then 190 to town, take train to paya lebar and then take cab.

Im gonna turn my room upside down out of man on fri. Xbox, TV, surround sound, Sub-woofer, 2 huge speakers and XD.

Been having lotsa weird dream nowadays. For instance i dreamt i didnt have time to do my bio pract and yesterday, i dreamt of amaths formula and cold war essays. >.<

I need a really good rest.

2006-11-11T17:11:00.000+08:00

So near yet so far.

This morning i agreed to help my bro in something. Initially didnt want to but who can resist the temptation of US$2000??? Dats like S$3400! Yea, my bro and his colleague took part in the amazing race, online one and qualify for the finals today. So my bro, sis and i crowded around the computer and my bro laptop and await for the starting of the race. Damn cool lor, got countdown timer one. Then you log in when it count down to zero. But then we were sorta facing some massive laginess cause using same network. Solve this simple question about where was the last pit stop for the amazing race and then we met a ROAD BLOCK. XD And it requires both members to play this board game but my bro laptop lag and cant get into the page so i carried on. I WAS DAMN HAPPY LAR. Team position was less than 10!!! $3400 can buy like 4 ps3 lor. Then when I reached the pit stop and check team status when everyone was like chanting ONE ONE ONE. THEN COME OUT ERROR. %^&(#*&!(*!! So quickly login my bro's account in my com and when he started playing, it was below 30 position liao. Eventually when everything ended, we were 84th. =( Awww... CUD HAVE WIN LAR.

Kk, off to chem.

2006-11-09T17:28:00.000+08:00

Woohoo. ITS OVER. Not Os but the two crazy mentally demanding paper: Geog p2 and Bio

ITS CRAZY I TELL YOU. I DUNNO HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE SAID THIS BUT ITS MAD. I was expecting to do well for both bio and geog one lor but you know, those two are the two subjects you gotta memorise a lot one. And the weird time table placed them both on the same day! When other full humanities get like one whole day to prepare, i had only 3 hours last night. Mug bio till 10 and geog till 1. And i still cant finish getting geog into my head. So today after Bio in the morning, i nearly burned out. Geog was quite okay, although agriculture was hard and river never come out but i knew im away from the As liao.

Remember the list of what-i-want-to-do-after-exam list? Theres a use for that manz. One question in eng essay came out something like so just copy and paste the crap into my paper, add some chimalogy words and phrases and ta-da! Merger sept came out. Bio quite alright. Exams have never been so fun manz. JUST ONE MORE WEEK! WORLD WAAAAIITTT FOR ME!

2006-11-02T09:57:00.000+08:00

This sucks.

Kinda don't feel like moving house liao. My family is so bounded by fengshui. For eg. I was supposed to move to some condo at yio chu kang 4 yrs ago but then cause the door direction not suitable then didnt move. Now, cause im sharing a room with my bro, both of us had to sleep facing different direction as in i will prolly be looking at his feet when i sleep and him at mine. =/ Wads more, i can't even have the free will to design my room. No platform, no shifting of study table and no shifting of bed direction. wth. I might as well not move house and stay in my own cosy messy room. At least im free to do wadeva ridiculous thing inside and not get stressed out. Oh well, screwed.

Hopefully can finish ss by mon.

2006-10-28T10:05:00.000+08:00

Ytd went out and celebrated XD's birthday. Woohoo, my friendly sji chairman for 4 years. Haha, planned a surprise for him at lido initially but he changed course and headed towards food republic. So the gang shifted there, went up food republic, light the candle on this small slice of green tea cake [which looks so tempting since i was holding it], walk towards him and sang a birthday song in the mid of the place with people staring at us. Haha, it was all fun manz. But then, sin gave him one giant superman balloon which i think would be a funny sight just seeing him carrying it around town. =X Wanted to buy spongebob boxer but scared he wun wear so bought this cute panda cum magnet cum lamp for him instead. Damn cute one lor, i also want lar. Forgot to take pics of it. Then headed to this weird shop for lunch. I felt cheated of my money lar. Paid like $15 bucks just to cook this piece of chicken and salmon myself. =.= Luckily, some damn nice lady ran towards [yea, literally ran, i was shocked] and passed me this discount voucher. I think i was so dumbfounded that i even forgotten to thank her. >.< After that, matt and james headed for tution, josh, ben, rick and wang went to study and then excluding wang go play lan. Loser me went home. Seriously dunno how those people can actually mug near 5 lan shops. But i went home also did nth productive, played com the whole afternoon and studied till 12 at night.

Anw, with the os approaching, i got to admit IM FEELING IT. Yea, dun feel completely prepared although im sure you can even pass without studying. Im just not confident about the As and getting everything into my head on time for sub like bio, geog, chem and elect. In fact, i am still at geog and am still trying to memorise it. I just dun feel secure not being able to being to like even look through the textbook once. And im sorta losing the hang of it. Wasnt able to focus and often end up on the comp. >.< Bleah, 9 more days, all the way!

2006-10-20T20:42:00.000+08:00

Official last day of sch had ended on mon, the sec4 farewell para-liturgy and assembly was such an EMO session. Yea, it is always sad to part even with guys. T.T Initially i was stunned to see some the most not likely to cry person tearing, some scholar who is 18 now. But then, after the pinning badge session and receiving friendly hugs from ms goh and mr lim and one tight hug from my tearing friend from my sec2 class, I WAS GOING TO CRY. Ms Goh is probably the best form tutor i ever had, i mean it - BEST. She is such a nice understanding teacher who gives our class lotsa treats such as erm, Twisties, Choc, Sweets and PIES [on our graduation day] and never blow her top. She is also the first teacher i recall taking note of student's birthday and spending time and money to go shop for chocs [MORE] and some casual gifts [its the thought that counts]. Mr Lim is my Bio teacher for 4 years and he is probably the most FUNNY teacher ever! Funny in a good way of course. Haha, still remember his ridiculous dirty jokes in sec1, his life story about his ex and the cruel experiments on frogs and rats in upper sec and how he sticked his tongue out to show the sweet he was eating when i got caught passing sweets to others. [Not allowed to eat sweets in class] He is damn friendly also. Not to mention Mdm Lee as well! My other form tutor in lower sec. Haha, maybe it is because of the other pathetic teacher that is why we like her so much! And like all good teacher, she gives us goodies! Plus she shares with us her personal life - like all the disputes in sch, her upper sec class etc etc.

I feel like a small boy lor, getting happy over sweets and choc...
nvm

Bio pract was a tough one. Dun wanna talk about it.

Although it is supposed to be some kinda break now, i still cant get a break from studying. Everyday go back sch at 9 plus and study till 5 plus before going for 45mins of bball. Such an interesting life i got. We turned the class into some desire mugging spot. Open the cupboard and you'll find a few 1.5litre green tea bottle, 1 stick of mentos, some bread and chocs. Take what u need to mug then go find a seat. Then ms goh wud come up daily to give us treats also.
Cant seem to get the thought in my head that O is like 2 weeks plus away only. =/

I get bored while studying so dun mind me if u guys receive random smses.
A tribute to teachers...

Anw, random shit. [Dun read unless u are bored, damn bored]

2 reasons why intense exercising is better than intense mugging
1) Books dun turn girls on, Abs do! XD
2) If you think too much while exercising, you will fail. But if you dun think while mugging, Good luck.

Im bored.

2006-10-13T14:17:00.000+08:00

I'M SIXTEEN!

Tiramisu cake, yum yum. Many thanks to peeps who wished me happy birthday, especially YONG JUN and YVONNE, the 2Ys who walked all the way from FAJAR to my house to wish me happy birthday and give me my 1st birthday present from friends since p6. Haha, i knw it sounds pathetic but u knw, 11th oct is normally during exam period and guys are normally quite kiamsap and gives me sth free such as a wedgy. >.< [oh yea, thx josh for saving my ass] Got a ring from my bro and his gf and a watch which i havent got yet. Not to mention the big big fat fat black PINK blue pencil box from the 2Ys. THANKS! XD

Spent mid-autumn fest lighting candles, eating mooncakes and drinking chinese tea, the original way with my mum at home. Haze was horrible. Watched the island on sat and its one of the best few movies i had ever watched. Futuristic movie about clones and stuff. COOLIO STUFF!

Well, my family is in quite a chaotic state now. Dad's workplace having some prob and splitting up the company into two. Then my mum dunno got wad problem started nagging. Today, i even found the phone hang up such dat pple cant call in and she told me in a serious tone not to touch it. Pity dad, respect dad.

One more schoolday to go. =/
Going ACJC and CJC open house tmr. ~roll the red carpet for me!!!~

2006-10-06T19:07:00.000+08:00

I wanna watch princess hour when it comes out on channel U cause the gal damn cute! XD No wonder people are so hooked to korean dramas.

Today is the first time in four years which im able to just relax and do nothing on mooncake festival. But then, im stuck at home partially because of the haze and partially because theres no one who wanna go chinese garden with me. The haze is so bad that i can actually smell the smoke when the wind blows. ¬cough¬

Finalised result for prelims: 12 points. It is supposed to be 11 due to some error in marking in my chem practical but since chen didnt really look concerned about that tiny little one mark, i couldn't get my A1. Furthermore, the result are supposed to be finalised after monday so yea, too bad for me.

One more, one last week in SJI...

2006-10-02T13:41:00.000+08:00

My prelims result isnt satisfying, in fact, it is so depressing, disheartening. People who slack can actually score better in their L1R5 than me. Mug my life off and to get some double digit crap, great. So much for the below 10 points dream. All the subjects i am supposed to score, i didnt. In fact, physics the subject which i mug damn hard and i was aiming for an A1, i got B4 before moderation. Screw it and teachers are so kiam and refuse to give me the extra half mark. I asked like 4 questions and all got like rejected.

6 damn A2, what can i do with it? L1R5: 13/maybe 12/maybe 11.

Back to the books.

2006-10-01T12:30:00.000+08:00

Speech and Graduation Day was a blast!

It was the first time when everyone was so engrossed in speeches, where parents were gathered together with their sons, when everyone sang the songs with much enthusiasm and volume. 2nd last time where we would be gathered together in the hall before we leave for JC. The letter part brought along tears and joy and i refused to look back, for i was afraid i cant control my emotions. I mean who wouldnt cry if u see ur own parents crying? But nonetheless, it was really a rare opportunity for me to express my gratitude to them after 4 yrs. I still remembered how i was opposed to go to SJI b4 PSLE because of its catholic background. Oh well, four passed by real fast and soon it would really be the time to say goodbye to SJI.

Anyway, theres an error in the booklet so all josephian, please turn to page 15, line 5. Kindly add in Napfa (Gold). Thank you.

School forgotten to add in my NAPFA score! No wonder my certificate list so empty. Wth. And i got no certificate for it although i was doing pull-up with my elbow cracking every pull. Then when they passed me the napfa result to check, i even asterick it. Then when the certificate lists came out, i thought napfa wasnt included so i didnt tell rohan. Tsk tsk, gotta find him on mon. They better give me the certificate and badge manz else thats one less thing for me to appeal.

Result's out on mon and i saw Chen ytd and he told me i passed and for a moment, i was like YAY! But then, its just a pass yet he told me to keep up the good work. Hence, i stood down there for a sec, wondering if i did well or not. He told Ms goh that our class did well. Mr lam as well, who told us that our class got 9 Distinction without moderation. XD But he would be going back for reservice and wouldn't be able to "follow you all through the last lap". Awww...

HAPPY CHILDREN DAY!
Once a Josephian, Always a Josephian. Proud member of the Old Boys Association.

2006-09-30T14:00:00.000+08:00

Copied and pasted this from cheryl's blog. Found this a damn meaningful programme lor. Anw, if you guys are free, go visit the webbie and light one candle. Stop those paedophillic immature cruel beasts, even boys below 3 years old arent spared. >.<

Light a candle for them.

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Graduation in 2 hrs time.

2006-09-29T22:22:00.000+08:00

Sorta got bored ytd and went searching moe website for the different JC cut off point and i got the shock of my life. I got conned throughout the period of my prelims preparation into thinking that the cut off point into NJ is 8 since theres the add 2 points thingy for the first three month. BUT NO... Checked the website and found out that cut off is 6 for science stream. And im prolly gonna get like only B4 for english. And even if i get B3 for eng, i doubt i wud be able to get all A1 since i intended to include my MT. Well, life sucks.

Anw, TauPok damn funny today. HE STARTED SINGING AND DANCING. XD It was some song he composed so he gotta keep refering to his book. THEN HE RAPPED! Chinese somemore! BAO ZHA BAO ZHA! I swore i was literally LMAO till my hand was trembling and saliva was spat onto my hp. =X Then he danced to this 5566 song which was much better than the "you-know-who" one. Respect manz, hes my sji idol!!! TAUPOK!

Tagging doesnt make you stress, mugging do. And when i get back my prelims result on mon, u guys will see a NO LIFE MUGGER who will be doing TYS DAY TILL NIGHT and RESTRICT himself from using the com except for fri. People who are generous can donate me plain paper and coffee packets, 3-in-1 one. Arigato.
NJ NJ... ~clap clap~ NJ NJ...

2006-09-27T13:38:00.000+08:00

How i wish this blog is still a private one. I got so much to complain, so much thoughts in me to say but i CAN'T.

Sec4 graduation day coming soon and im looking forward to it although i only got one pathetic certificate. Come to think about it, the previous 2 years went passed so fast and i can't really remember much about it. All i recall is the shift from short little pants to long pants, to crappy ugly hair, endless nights of dota and judo. Nothing productive, nothing memorable. And i cant really do anything much now for everyone is tied down by O which is like 6 weeks away. TYS and PAPERS once again. Christmas please come early.

I seriously missed lot of things in life. How i didnt treasure my friendship in the past but yet... How i ignore everyone basically because i found them lame. How i hurt people's feelings without knowing it. How i ended things and regret it in the end. I was once a selfish asshole but never again.

I hate the changes around me. I hate the ugly side of this world. And i do sometimes hate myself.

2006-09-23T00:45:00.000+08:00

PRELIMS IS OFFICIALLY OVER

But sad to say, we got no one week break. Sch is deriving us of our rights. >.< And i cant keep long hair coz got hair check on mon. But who cares, 3 days is enough to have fun like mad. Movies, Arcade, Swim, Ping Pong, Bball, Bowling and sadly LAN (something i was determined not to do but was forced to by peer pressure) and gastric, which was the worst i had ever experienced. I couldnt continue my food although i was kinda hungry and the pain caused me to bend over and be immobilised for like half an hour? Luckily, my bro fetched me home from town, not to mention i missed watching Banquet with the rest thanks to the gastric. Thanks bro.

Didnt played bball for damn long and today i got owned by small kids, who are prolly 12, 13, 14? not say really got pwned lar but kept screwing the opportunity up. Still rmb the days when i used to be a basketballohic.

And smoking is bad for health. It is a selfish act that shorten pple life by 10yrs (i think) and smokers stink. Smoking IN LIFT is also PROHIBITED by LAW. Smelled like 5 puffs of smoke today lar. Damn it. Assholes.

I wanna watch The Host, anyone?

2006-09-12T13:09:00.000+08:00

Woohoo, 8 more papers to go.

Was complaining to Jason Sin and Wang about how sick it is to study and guess what they told me? Think of all the IJ girls mugging as well and i was like errr.... Haha, i'm aint gay but that a weird way of motivating urself to study. Xin li bian tai. =X

Anw, shudnt blog abt exams coz its bleah, unhealthy. Yea! Hadnt exercise properly for weeks and royston is developing a tummy and pimples are poofing out like mad. >.< (Cant wait for everything to end)² before i do my sit-ups and push-up, take off braces (Been close to 2 yrs) and shave my moustache (took me damn long to find this word in m-w) and be a HUNK, i hope. XD

Off for my private intimate section with marianne chong (textbook).

2006-08-31T13:14:00.000+08:00

Teachers' Day!!!

Went back to the newly renovated zhenghua and chatted with my form tutor in p6. Awww, so sad lor, she forgotten my name. =( Anw, Zhenghua changed alot, new canteen, new principal and vice principle, new foyer, new staff room, new weird rooms like "invention room" and "evolution room" and A NEW HALL which looks so duper stylo with the light brown flooring and bright white lights, like some indoor sports stadium lor and it looks bigger than the bedok one. I got pangseh by the rest of the 6Rians. All never come. -.- Okay, maybe only daniel came but i zhao before he arrived. AND AND I SAW MY MASTERPIECE!

Okay, maybe not my best work ever but then. ITS STILL THERE!

And i killed my stressball, squeeshy. It started leaking and i gotta stick tape on it.

When things just doesnt go right, what would you do?
When things around you just start disappearing, what would you do?
When lust, agony and addiction start appearing in the picture, what would you do?

2006-08-25T14:36:00.000+08:00

Im blogging! Aha, cudnt stand the pressure manz... Anw, didnt come here to whine but then, the previous days had just been so screwed up.

Imagine this, you down there in the cold hall, feeling all so stressed up coz its ur english o level oral exam. Ur ten minutes of preparation is up and you are just moment away from your fate. The teachers waved at you, u dragged ur feet there. You smiled in an awkward manner, sat down and start reading. Halfway, TEACHERS START TALKING AMONG THEMSELVES AND LAUGH!!!! WTF?! -_-" And it didnt happened to me only, it happened to almost everyone in my group.

Bio pract, 2 /3 test tubes didnt change colour during reducing sugar test. Looked around, others changed. Strange, redo, didnt change, dun care, do again, didnt change, nvm try again, still nv change, left 20mins, last attempt, put in 2 B and 2 C instead of just 1. BOTH NV CHANGE. WHY? WHY?

Cant wait for O to end for
1) Basketball
2) Swim
3) Judo
4) Eat sakae sushi buffet
5) Go on shopping spree
6) Have an overnight bridge session again
7) TALK on msn
8) Complete my games
9) Movie marathon
10) Sleep my ass off
11) Learn breakdance
12) Go Sentosa
13) Go ECP
14) Redecorate room (im moving hse)
15) Draw some masterpiece

Aww, 3 months more. Please, can die lor.

2006-08-16T16:30:00.000+08:00

Wun be blogging for the next 3 weeks. =(

2006-08-13T12:04:00.000+08:00

Bleah, i felt bad last night. Was rambling lotsa crap which didnt even make sense at all on msn. Was in the ultra annoyed mood coz i was sorta having a slight headache, i was sweating alot and my whole body felt so sticky although the fan is on, some irritating mosquito got nth to do so bite me 3 times and i cant help thinking abt the 220 pages i gotta mug today. >.<

Boring mr roy. =(

2006-08-12T09:44:00.000+08:00

From the boy who got a C5 for his chinese mid year, who mistaken crossing the road as entering malaysia illegally, scoring only 10 for his essay last time, to the man who gets his A2!!! =) Told ya memorising essays help.

Got 7 distinctions in class and 5 of these goes to the slackers at the back of the class [Exclude me and josh] who are constantly disrupting the flow of lessons and talking crap with lao shi. I feel bad for those in my class who didnt get distinction lor, those trying their best to follow in the front of the class wad she's teaching. =X Nonetheless, THANK YOU TPL! XD [I wud be shocked if she actually tagged.]

Got 350 pages of text to memorise by mon. >.<
Mugging is like Judo. You torture yourself mentally to get there, to get the ippon. And you don't give up, because once you do so, you get thrown real bad and you can't breakfall.
Aww, i miss the dojo.

2006-08-10T22:03:00.000+08:00

Chinese O level result out tmr... SO EXCITINGGGGG MANZ! XD

If get A1, shud drag lao shi to treat us marche, or the villa-ji. Villa-ji sounds more posh. =X
I cant focus for nuts.

2006-08-09T09:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!! XD

All thanks to national day that students can get 3 days off from the boring school. How cool is that??
Anw, Patriotic me is at home with my parent only coz my siblings headed off to bangkok ytd. >.<

Lake house killed my brain cells. Its just the kinda movie that makes you wonder and think, and figure out what the heck exactly happened till u decided not to think about it at all since it is just a movie. And it lacks the sweet kinda feeling in it. Awww... I missed part of the ending coz someone called me! =(

After that, headed off to marche which is now renamed as village. Village sounds cheap, marche dun. Haha, the cj pple are rich manz, especially shourav. I cudnt bear to take off my wallet there at all coz even food like fried rice costs $8+. Played the zhong ji mi ma game and sherman came up with this extremely sadistic forfeit. SNIFF PEPPER. Haha, thats worse than eating a pasta soaked with tabasco and cheese and creamy chicken cream. >.<>

I wanna bowl!

2006-08-06T10:45:00.000+08:00

Yesterday farewell was a blast!

Went to sji first to watch this tribute video for the j2. Haha, hilarious stuff. Siti's mimick of don is so authentic and real! OYE, STOP SLACKING LAR! After that, went to canteen to write testimonials for the leaving j2 inside this neatly designed card. Oh yar, the sec4 also got cards from the sec3 as well. I swore i almost teared after reading some of what the sec3 gotta say about me. I felt so appreciated. Thanks sec3, you guys rawkz! =)

Headed over to seoul garden at marina. It was miraculous how we managed to transport over 50++ pple to there inside two public buses. Down there, we saw our other coach, peng phay with his baby daughter. haha, damn cute lor. Sat, ate, talked with the fellow sec4. Thats prolly the last time whereby we can really sit together and eat again this year. Freaking O's. I was also dragged into giving a speech. >.< Wasnt expecting one since everyone left except the sec4, some sec3 and the cj pple. So in the end, i gave quite a bad impromptu speech. =( Sec3 was so kind oso. Orangised fireworks for us. XD haha, it happened to the fireworks display for national day at the esplanade there and from seoul garden, we could see the reflection of the fireworks from this glassy building.

Anw, sorry to tong, zhenyi, rachel and christy for the long sleeves thingy. The sec4 lar, all coordinated, saying that they're going to wear but.... =( Luckily yj told me last minute. Thx partner.

I GONNA MISS U GUYS! XD

2006-08-04T21:18:00.000+08:00

Crappy feeling now. I cant study. I hate my past.